TOTAL RANDOMNESS.

Dear Bloggie,

MUAHAHA, PMR WAS OVER. And it was already like a week only I come for a blog post.

Yesh, finally it was over, FINALLY. I've been waiting for that day so long. So I no need to keep thinking of it, no need to force myself to think of it, no need to stress myself, no need to listen to any more of my mum's mumbling, no need to give a time limit to my games, now it's all about freedom babehh. ;)

Saw the bloggie title today? Yeah total randomness. What I will talk about today is totally random and I have no idea what I will be taking about, well, let's just wait and see what I will write. :P

1. PMR
- Okayy.. I summarize the whole thing for this.
Before the exam - WAIT DIE
After the exam - WAIT DIE x100000000
I have no idea what I'm doing during the exams. -__- It's like seriously.
First day, BM paper 1 and paper 2: Paper 1 I already got no hope on it, paper 2 I've no idea what I'm writing on the essay part and I NEVER STUDY anything about the novel that came out. I'VE BEEN STUDYING FOR FORM 1 and FORM 3's NOVELS AND YOU CAME OUT FORM 2, what a nice idea to trick the students. THEN WHY YOU CHANGE THE NOVEL SYLLABUS FOR FORM 3??? FOR WHAT????



ARGHHH, ISHHHH. >:(
Second day, English Paper 1, paper 2 and Geography: English, my 'master' subject. Say honestly, if I never get A for English in PMR, let me die. Geography, B is not a problem, hope I can simply tembak until A, hahahaha.
Third day, Science paper 1, paper 2 and History: I screwed up Science paper 1 even though it's easy x100.
Paper 2, I think I performed well, maybe still got the chance to get A. History, B I think it's not a problem, but still, I hope I can simply tembak until A as well, hahaha.
Fourth day, Mathematics paper 1, paper 2 and KH: Mathematics 1 I got no enough time to finish the thing, more than 10+ questions I just simply circle the most logical answer for me. Paper 2 I think I can tipu some marks from the workings. I think still got the possibilities to get B. :3 KH, I got no mood at doing it, I don't know what I'm doing, I just hope I can tembak the correct answer and also get a B for it.
Fifth day, the final day, Chinese paper 1 and paper 2: My another hope of getting A is extinguished. -__- I think it's impossible to get A already, sighs. My Chinese... T____T The A subject that I must get, fly away already. :'( </3
So conclusion, I don't want to see any 'C' on my PMR result paper, how many As, how many Bs I don't care already.
And PMR over already, why should I care now? Keep calm and wait die. ♥

2. Beauty beauty stuffs.
- During the before PMR and PMR period, I got no mood to care about my facial health, facial care or FACE. So my face for that time really was cacat x100. With those pimples, oil bags and the BLACKHEADS ON THE NOSE!!!! I'm suffering with serious blackheads on the nose for like so long time already, and I still can't get rid of them. Why are they so stubborn? ARGH.

Cacat face. :X

Part of the skin care products.

Use ALL the skin care product for my face!!! Muahaha, I want to have a pretty face. :3 Heeeheee.♥

FATTY GIRL IS MASKING. :3 ♥

Must put in more effort to be leng leng, haha. Becoming beautiful is almost every girl's dream, not? :3 ♥

3. FOOD.
- So long that I didn't take any picture of food, since it's been a long time that I never go out for shopping. :(

Mini egg tart. 

THIS IS SO NICE! But bought this from Klang, hard to find for this kind of taste in KL. NICEEE x10000.♥

4. GAMING NONSTOP.
- After PMR, I kept my words. SDO SIAO WHOLE DAY NONSTOP. Fight for my Guild or so called clan inside. Now I am busying for my Guild blog, I am still decorating it. Need to use a lot of time for that. And also shua shua shua for my guild, WOWFaNTaSTiC, cheer up! I'm trying my best to become a good leader inside though.

Bringing my purple laptop anywhere I go (inside the house). Fatty girl is addicted to SDO so much.
P/s: Look at the piles of books behind, haha. Still haven't go and burn all my books or tear them apart yet.

Shua shua shua...

Not just my desktop, both desktop and laptop are functionally so well to shua, even though it can't perform well, IT STILL MUST PERFORM WELL. #Hardcore

A random picture that I took when I was shua-ing.

Ignore the pimples, I look so different right? :3 HAHA!

5. NAIL COLOUR

- Since I won't be going to school, maybe during the end of the month, when we need to take our textbooks and get to know for our class streaming next year only I will go to school. So, still got plenty of time. No worries. ♥

Le left hand.

Nude orange, orange, a silver look kind of purple, a blue look kind of purple, Purple. PURPLE!!!!!!!! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Le right hand.

White, yellow, orange, red, brown. MUAHAHA.

10 different colours together. I'm so 'awesome'.

6. THE SONG THAT I AM ADDICTED RECENTLY

- Flower Dance by DJ Okawari, it's just so nice. I know it from one of the SDO in game songs. I strongly recommend this song, even though it's without any lyrics. A relaxing music. Nice.♥

I will put this song as my bloggie background music soon, please stay tuned, heee.

Links to listen this song:
DJ Okawari - Flower Dance

Flower Dance ~ DJ Okawari Cover

The cover one is awesome, you guys should check it out. ;)

So, I got addicted, I'm learning how to play this as well on my piano. :P

Although I can't sit for a long time at the piano, because the chair have no backrest, but I will take at least 5 minutes every day to practice this song to perfection. ♥

Okayy, those are the random stuffs I want to talk about today. Random enough eh?

I still got a lot a lot more to tell, but just wait. I will often come for an update.

Now it's already 2:56AM 20/10/2012, and I'm not yet sleeping, what a good lifestyle for my body and health.

Stop here, gotta go. 

Miss me, love me, wait me. xoxo.

Chaos.

PMR, hold your horses!

Dear Bloggie,


Hello guys. ;) How are you all doing? Currently I'm writing my bloggie in midnight. Haha. Sometimes, midnight is the only right time to express all those deep feelings.

This is a short post, so don't worry. Don't know what's wrong with me, I've been slept for almost 6 hours from 12p.m ++ to 6p.m after I came back from school. Went school to attend the Science seminar, for some last minute tips, haha. I'm not really into my studies nowadays.

Today, Sunday, 12:26a.m, two more days to PMR. And I'm not even 20% ready for all subjects. I think I will only study that particular subject on that particular day. -___- Some more I say that I want to go for Science stream, what a joke! Oh yes, sure, I will only study for Science, no more. Hahaha. x) Now, I hope I can score A(s) for all my languages, I'm only good in that.

So, one day left for me to cover my Geography, History and Science. Monday I will only cover my BM for Tuesday, the first subject of the PMR examination. Yeaa, that's pretty awesome with the novel and also the literature parts. *blah*

OMG, now I don't know what to continue, headache, sleepy head, dizzy. Sighs, you see, tons of problems. Sighs. How am I ever going to study in a comfortable state? :/

2 more days, aza-aza fighting every candidates! Wish you the best of luck.

I think I better rest first, or else I got no energy to study tomorrow. Goodnight loves.

Soon is the day.

Dear Bloggie,


Hello everyone. :) It's been a very long since the last update. Well, for this time I changed my bloggie address and also some things inside the bloggie. ;) im-precious.blogspot.com > erinyiyi.blogspot.com isn't more easier to be remembered? Hahaha. :)

Tell you some situation about me recently. The first important thing is, I didn't go to school for at least one month already I think. Why? Haha, it is because of my backache and also some difficulties in walking. That makes me can't go to school for so long. After I ran and also played badminton during the past past past past past PJ lesson, I actually can't do extreme exercises, yeaa, running is considered as an extreme exercise for me. I just can't run. -___- But still I went for it, this is the so called 'padan muka'.

Let me see, what's the date today.. OH GOSH, it's already 3rd of October! And my PMR is extremely near now, 9th of October.

Picture source: Facebook (Gagforest)

That picture describes a lot of words. No need to say much. :/ So 'sui' that my PMR is in the year 2012. 

PMR is coming, within these few days. But still, I am less into books. -___- I just don't have the mood to study. I DON'T KNOW WHY. This is the time that I should be studying, I think maybe the night before that subject only I will go and revise. You know why? Every time when I want to take a book and study, what happens? Here pain, there pain, headache, flu, whatever thing also come. -___- Like want to stop me from studying. Including now, I'm blogging but I keep 'ah choo ah choo ah choo' at there, nonstop! Tissues all over the place. -___- WHAT HAPPENED TO ME SERIOUSLY?! 

I actually come here to practice my English for the English paper 2 essay. Hahaha. I improved a lot after I start blogging in English. :D Since I can't do any revision in a more comfortable state, blogging is the best choice for me now. 

So, for now, I still spend  a lot of my time in playing online games, still. -___- Especially my Super Dancer Online. I just can't stop playing it. Maybe it because I have a bunch of good friends and also a happy family inside, it makes me want to online everyday just to chat with them. They are the reason I start active back in online game, I finally found the reason, but, it's not really the time. -___- But still, they gave me a lot of mental support, without them, I think I will also be very sad with my condition now. 

Okayy, I'm lacking of words now. Brain stuck, runny nose, blurry eyes, oxygen transportation can't reach the brain. So, stop here. Please patiently await for my next arrival, haha. 

Wish me luck in studies. And also all the PMR candidates, good luck.  ♥

PMR is near.

Yo, wassup! Don't know what happened to me, recently I keep on saying this to people yo. :3

Okayy, I need to change my habit of 'one month blog once'. I can't always leave my bloggie here, being dusty and not updated. Well, my bad. I always say that I want to update update update, but ended up lazy.

Actually I got a lot a lot of things that I want to share. But I don't think so I will write very long today, since I said before I will try to write short posts. So, more people will come and read, visit. AT LEAST. Practice makes perfect. I believe that.

Okayy, shall we get into the main point? Yeaa, I will be talking about my PMR trial result.

For me, I think I did a good and also 'not-so-good' job. Of course there will also be some improvement and 'deprovement'.  Well, just look at my BELOVED Mathematics, I'm so proud of myself, MUAHAHAHA.
It's like after so long, FINALLY I did it!!! A 'B' for my Mathematics after so long! Heeeheeeheeeeeee.
Thanks to my Mathematics teacher, tuition teachers. :D They are awesome. :3

For the 'deprovement' part, which is my Sejarah, for my mid year exam I got a 75 marks, a 'B' for my Sejarah and see now what happened to it. This is what will happen if Science and Sejarah are both on the same day. I concentrated on Science the MOST and I didn't even touch my Sejarah. At the last minute only I read some super duper short notes.

For the other subjects, I'm still satisfied with the marks because I still don't really put in my full effort inside. Thank God I got both B for my Science and Mathematics. Tell you what, my school is using the trial's result for next year's class streaming. I don't know what class I will go with the 'not so good' result I'm having there, 87/385..... I hope that I still get the chance to go for Science stream classes, pure ones. *finger crossed*
P/s: But the Science paper 2 was hard, it's not fair..... and the teacher and tuition both haven't finish their syllabus, blame it on that baby! *winks* ;)

I swear I won't simply playing around with the real PMR. I try to get myself to study more properly than last minutes. :3 Heeheee.  I won't get any 'C's for my real PMR examination and also at least I will, I MUST get 4 'A's, no matter what subject it is. :3 But I'm aiming for Chinese, English, Malay, Science, Mathematics. Oops, that's already more than four As. ;)

Still, wish me luck on that. My willpower is not that strong though. :3 Hahahahaha.

Okay, enough with my sick results. Let's make a good happy ending for today's post.

Last Friday, I went to Hamizul's open house, with the buddies. ;) Especially with my baby Suryyyy and Julia. ;) That's the first time I'm going for a Malay friend's open house. It's a new kind of experience. Nice, they are so mesra, and kind. Oppositely, all of us are quite, shy... :3 Haha. Well, after that, four of us, Sury, Julia, me, including the tuan rumah Hamizul went to Jusco to have a walk under the air cond.

Then, four of us went to take pictures at the photo booth. Haha. 3 girls one boy.

Girls are beautiful while the boy is cute. :3 (Don't include me inside of the girls.) 

Had a blast, had a nice day with them. ;) On MERDEKA day, HAHAHA. Satu Malaysia spirit! ♥

This is such a happy ending for today right? :D Be happy that the post is quite short, because I'm trying my best to SHORTEN it that's why! 

Will share more soon, chaos chaos. ;) 

Please do miss me. ♥

Feelings are indescribable.

Hello. It's been a very long since I come here and say at least a 'Hello'. Well, I clearly know that well. ;)

During the month of July, I don't know what happened to me, I don't have the time and mood to update my bloggie, and also other thing else. Bad July. Now, July was over, August has come. I bet in this new month, I will have a brand new attitude to confront all kinds of stuff.

So, pretty much nothing happened to me July. The unforgettable ones are,  I had so much fun together with my classmates a.k.a crazy friends a.k.a besties! :D And also the farewell party we made for our beloved Miss Ellaine Hong. ;) She's once our Kemahiran Hidup teacher and also Moral teacher. :) A very very good one. I miss her so much! :( Still, I wish she will be having a good time with her University life. ;) And please don't forget us, same to us, we will never ever forget you. :)

Okayy. Recently, I just finished my PMR trials. What I can say is, I don't know what kind of bad results I will get, I just hope that I won't get any failings. One failing will hurt my heart so much. Because my school will be using the PMR trial exam to do our class streaming for next year. Okayy, I know that's kinda strange but what to do. School rules are rules, we can't change it. So, the trial for Science is hard. Very very hard. For some I don't even see questions like that before. What can I say is, PLEASE, MAY GOD BLESS ME. Please, at least at least a C or B. I know I can't get A. But another funny thing is, for the people who always following the updates of my bloggie, you all will know that, MUST know that I HATE MATHEMATICS VERY VERY MUCH. Now, I think, maybe my MATHEMATICS will get higher marks than the Science. -_____- Everything changed. OMG. And for those subjects like Sejarah and Kemahiran Hidup is what I scare the most for now. I scare both of those subjects I will fail. D: Firstly, Science and Sejarah are in the same day, I focus on Science paper more than my Sejarah paper. At the end, I study nothing about Sejarah. Secondly, during my Kemahiran Hidup paper, don't know what happened to me, headache strikes no mood to do the paper. Honestly saying I just want those two papers to pass with a D also nevermind, AT LEAST A PASS.

My results dropped a lot, seriously. Comparing last year's and this year's. OMG. WHAT A DIFFERENCE. And I don't know what happened to me. I changed a lot this year. I'm more into enjoying my life than sacrifice my time to study for the future. Maybe it because the school give up on me and I give up my school? Nah. I think it only contains 80% of it. x) HAHAHA! Just kidding. Well, since they change the format of the results. I don't really care of my marks anymore. The percentage is nothing anymore. So, I won't aim for marks. I aim for 'cukup makan'. Enough then okayy already. I won't hope for more.

Conclusion is, I hope I won't fail any subjects, and then I still manage to get into Science stream or at least a sub-Science FIRST. I will study hard, BOOST MY RESULTS during the real PMR thingy. School, you just wait and see. ;) Me making the difference. ;) P/s: I hope I really can do so....... Wish me luck on studying though.

Actually I come here today is to share my opinion, thinking on this particular thingy.. I feel so strange that, why everyone is not the same? Not to say the outer appearance, that hurts a lot. </3 Let's say about the inner side today.

In this world, so many people are living in this world, living in the same earth, sharing the same air, sharing the same universe and also a lot a lot of things. We are the same in this kind of thing. But, why? Say until feelings and characteristics, everyone is not the same, in EVERY moment?

Characteristics, this is kinda interesting. People are born in different ways of characteristic. It can be kind, polite, happy go lucky, smart, generous, graceful and lots more. But some, in an interesting way of their own special kind of unique, they are selfish, careless, reckless and lots more also. But what I can say is, everyone is born KIND, just the way of their thinking and the way of their act changed their attitude. Well, you can be what you want, though.

Feelings, this is a very very strange, special and actually words can't describe what feelings really are. Everyone in the world now has different feelings now. Like some people are sad now because of their results, some people are happy because good luck come and knock at their doorbells. Some people like me, are feeling curious on something... Feelings, there are so many many many, or maybe MUCH.. because it's uncountable...
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Let's have an example for this. One of them is so sad because of something while another one is so so so happy because he gets what he wants. For me, I will be sad and happy in the same time as well for them. One is very very sad while another is very very happy. It's like the sky and the ground. These two things, you can't even relate them together. So, I'm feeling quite complicated. A mixture of sad and happiness, and that's kinda.............. kinda......... don't know what to do.

What I can conclude is, when one's sad, they feel that happiness is quite far away from them. When one's happy, they don't know actually there are so many people are feeling sad at that moment, because they are very very happy. Sighs, I also don't know how to say about this. Not to say one cannot be happy or sad, just why everyone can't be happy in the same time. I know that's real strange if that really happens.

When one's happy, they will instantly forget everything they been through, those hard, tough moments. When one's sad, they will instantly forget everything they had, those happiness, and wonderful times. What I can say is, sometimes, us, humans, don't know how to appreciate for what we have and also being those kind of... how to say.. ridiculously forgetful when they're enjoying the time of their life on something, I mean those not permanent stuffs. Of course, that includes me, for doing all those things. :3

Why? Even though we know the theory and also the cycle of how it goes. But, everyone of us, sure, will make this kind of mistake. THE BIGGEST ONE, WE WILL NEVER APPRECIATE OURSELVES PROPERLY AND ALSO BEING GRATEFUL FOR WHAT WE HAVE. That's the ugliest truth, that we never know.

*SHORT PAUSE*
I'm feeling so lazy to continue this topic, OMG, I wrote so long already. -_-

People always let greediness go into their minds. WE WANT MORE spirit. Yes, that's it. GREEDY. And also. SELFISH. I want more of my happiness but I don't want any sadness. Yeah, who don't want a life like that? But it's impossible. Everyone will go through happiness and sadness in their life no matter how is it. Just, how we confront it, it's either with a smile or a frown.

What I can say is, we must try to be more optimistic in everything no matter is good or bad. Try to think of something more positive related to it, so you might not feel that bad. And no matter what happens, we MUST NOT give up, no no no. WE MUST FIGHT UNTIL THE END. At least you did try. ;) But of course not to call you to face the problem alone, you can bring some power to knock them off more easily by sharing it with your FRIENDS and they might/may help you in some ways. ;) Unity is power. And also don't look down on one's power as well. ;)

Okayy, I don't care, this must come to one end already. -__-  But now I don't know how to end it, so let's just.......... let it be? Okayy, serious serious. Having different feelings is normal, well, we are a human being, not a robot. *DUH* So it's okayy to smile, and it's also okayy to cry. ;) Do anything that will let you feel more relieved, but not something illegal for sure. -_- So light up the dark with a smile, fill up the blank pages of life with colours. ;)

Okayy, I'm so tired of typing now. -__- SO MANY WORDS TODAY. I'm quite pro huh? HAHAHA. x)

Once again, if anybody reads my post for today until here, I WILL BE SO SO THANKFUL because you actually wasted your precious time on my post. :3 Haha. And sorry there's no picture to share for today. And that's the reason of my lame blog here. Haha.

See you soon. ;) Looking forward to here. ;) Do come visit often. Thanks and chaos. ;)

Sports' Day 2012.

Cut all the craps, I won't say too much today. :3 I want to learn how to write a short post. -____- But still,  it won't be a too short one. Every picture tells a story. Fascinating. :3 HAHAHA! Okayy, let the story starts.

P/s: I will cut quite lot of the whole story, please forgive my laziness...

Story starts from last week's Friday, which is our school's Sports' Day.

Rumah Jentayu's khemah. :D

This is my rumah's khemah! :D It's nice right? :3 The time that I took this picture, they still haven't finish with all the decoration yet, still in progress. :D Nice green. Teeheee... GO GREEN GO! ♥


7 a.m. something, after all the classes lined up to take the attendance, Sports' Day officially starts. :D Well, the first event belongs to the pembarisan, marching. :3 Rumah sukan(s), Lembaga(s) and Badan Beruniform(s). :D Which I'm taking part in. :) So we just had fun there with no stress. ;) TBM Scouts ROCK! :D ♥


After the pembarisan, ikrar. pembukaan rasmi, all of us marched back to the place we first lined up, and then we keluar baris. Then, we are free to go anywhere and also do what ever we want, just during the penutup we need to be there again. So, I went to join my beloved friends. ;) 


HAHA! What I can say is, I HAD A CRAZY TIME WITH THEM OHHMEEGOSHH! :P We played each other's phones, snap pictures, ate keropok and many more... :3 Had a great time with them. ;) ♥

:P 

I wonder what are they looking and laughing at. :P 

Love this picture the most! ♥

Both of them look so cute hugging together. :3 Aww.... so sweet! :P HAHAHA! And also Brandon's epic face. ;)

Dhiya. :3

And I'm wondering what Satren is taking that time? :3

Fluffy and Dhiya. ;)

Firdaus and Nadzmy! :D

Fluffy's solo. :P 

Together Sury babeee! :P ♥ Picture by: Sury

And I can see you, Satren! :P 

Too bad I can't post up my beloved Hanu's picture. D: She just too shy to show her pretty face. :( Nevermind, I WILL STILL PUT IT SOMEDAY! :P Please stay tuned.. :P

Okayy, skip skip skip skip skip all the not important things. :3 Forward to the penutup part!

After all the running competitions, it comes to the end. ;) Prize giving ceremony and also the penutup... :D Well, all the marchers need to be there to kawad for a little while..And then keep clapping for the ones who are taking the prizes. ;D Well, we're also waiting for our acara, which is the pembarisan prize for the badan beruniform.. :D When the teacher wants to announce the winner for it, all of us are so nervous.....
"...... PENGAKAP!"
OMGGGGG! :DDD All of us are so so so happy! :DD We all shouted. :D And if you can just see our happy faces that time.. :') I'm so so so happy, because that's the first time I join badan beruniform's kawad, and I just practice for few days only, I'm so scared that I will screw up the whole thing, because I will be marching at the front line.. >___< But thank God! We won! ♥ For 2 years straight! :D Yeahhh! ♥ We must work harder for Hari Koko later. :D TBM SCOUT IS ALWAYS THE BEST! ♥  And of course, other badan beruniform did very well also! :) Work harder everyone! ♥ Together, all badan beruniform's power is very very strong. ;) Together we are one, we're Malurians. ♥

The trophy, it's now inside of our Scout room. ;) Picture by: Belle Tonq

After all the penutupan, all of us, everyone who's involved in marching, we ran the whole field for a round. ♥ That was crazy, really! And it feels awesome. That kind of feeling is simply amazing! ♥ 

After that, all of us went to some where near the basketball court there to take photos. ;)

;) Scout is always the best!  ♥ Picture source: Facebook

Picture by: Ling Ling Wong

This is so nice! :D I love the editing! :DDD Yeah! :D This is us, SCOUTS! :D When we're lining up and also during hormat time. ;) ♥ This is just simply awesome.. :D

I'm too lazy and too tired to continue this post, so I will stop here. ;) Just in time to stop this post also. :P HAHA!

I learned a lot, and also experienced a lot from all these kinds of activities. ;) It was fun, and I will keep going on this spirit! :D ♥

Okayy, really really sleepy now, sorry for my fail ending. :3 Need to get enough sleep, due to lack of sleep these days. ;) So goodnight, and I will soon be back, don't worry. ♥

Chaos.

Raining mood.

I'm so tired. Still, I come for an instant blog post before I rest, some more my laptop's battery gonna die soon. 

We had our Sports' Day raptai yesterday. We need to march under the hot sun is simply an 'brilliant' idea. And I became darker, OMG. -____- Need to use a long time for my skin to recover back to its more brighter state. After Sports' Day, skin care products GO GO GO! And For this week, because of my activities I need to stop jogging with my friend every evening. So start from next week, we will be jogging same as usual, just need to be more tougher. Because after so long we jogged last time. D: FATS MUST GO AWAY. 

And yeah, this last week of June doesn't give me any happy endings. -____- It makes my life more miserable . I don't know why. D: Why I can't start my June happily and end my June happily, there's must be some disturbance in it. :( And for this time, a lot of problems happened, which I don't want it to be happened. D: Sighs. Thank God I have friends that willing to be there for me when I needed someone the most. :') They are the most wonderful friends that I have. :') Hanu, Cheah, Kalai, Chin Yau, Julia, Firdaus, Naquib and Yee Hao. ;) I love them so much. ♥ And I want to say sorry to you all because I caused so much trouble for you all. :'( Please forgive me. Without you all, I don't know.. how to face all those terrible things, one by one, all alone, myself. Thank you so much. ♥

Will stop here for now. ;) Continue soon. Sports' Day tomorrow I need to get enough of sleep! Must be energized. ;) TBM SCOUT! We're the best, we're the champions. ;) Aza-aza fighting for tomorrow. ;) ♥

Goodnight, chaos. ;) 

Must destroy negative thoughts.

Today it's the day for the acara saingan. Well, like I said before, I'm taking part in rejam lembing and lontar peluru. I have a mixture of feelings. I'm feeling so excited, nervous, afraid, scared. This is the first time ever I join for sports event in school. From young, primary till now, I'm not active at all and I don't really like sports. But, for this time, I don't know why suddenly I become so active in sports and co-curricular activities, it's good though. Well, because it's the first time, I tried my best to train as hard as I could just no to be too embarrassed in the real competition. I don't have any sport experience. So for them that have good sports 'genes' inside them, that's good. But I got none. So I tell myself, other people work once, I need to work 10 times harder than them. Because I got no talent. That's why I need to keep practice, and honestly, I think it's not enough. D: Seriously, not enough time.... :'( All the teachers and seniors keep telling me that I can, I can do it. But inside of me, I already know at the end I will screw things up, I got no self-confidence...


Carrying high expectations from teachers and seniors for my rejam lembing acara makes me more afraid of it. They spent a lot of time on me, teaches me, train together with me. Some more before the competition, a senior of mine, call me and say, "Erin, you must get the first prize, it's the time for you to pay off your hard work, or else you trained two hours under the sun that time what for? Today right? So you can." After I heard this, I'm so so so happy but on the other side I'm quite scared because I may disappoint them. I'm a noobie who don't know sports, you should know that. Okayy, in a nice way, newbie. 


There's four times for us peserta to throw, one time is for the trial and the other three times they will start counting the mars. When I saw the other competitors throw so so so so so far, I'm getting more afraid. For sometimes, my performance won't be so steady. You know, for the javelin, the sharp part of it need to poke the ground only considered as pass. I'm afraid that I can't even poke the ground with the javelin. :( For the trial, I did great, the javelin steadily poked the ground. I'm happy, but that doesn't count. Okayy, things got serious. I throw again for the first time, this time I failed. The whole javelin dropped on the ground. So I'm convincing myself, "I still got two more chance, don't waste it." For the second time, the same situation happened ONCE MORE. The whole javelin dropped on the ground without poking anywhere. I'm more afraid now. Because that time, someone has the furthest throwing point which is 12++ meters.. For the third time, I tell myself I must make the javelin to poke the ground, no matter how near or how fair it is, I don't care already. I cannot be that 'fail' to keep disqualified for so many times. :'( Well, at last, finally I poked the ground with 6 meters ++ only.


What a distance I say. Well, I failed to get a position. There's still good news! My best buddy, Hanu, she got second place for it! ;D Hip hip horray for Jentayu! Jentayu UP UP! :P Hahaha! :P I feel so happy for her. Therefore, I feel so disappointed of myself. And I don't know how to face my seniors and teachers.... It's like, I failed to fulfill their request and expectations. I feel very very very sad. :'( I feel I am so stupid. D: You know what's the reason I will lose? I KEEP THINKING TOO MUCH! And you know what's the worst part? I actually keep thinking that I will fail to make the javelin poke the ground. How pathetic. I'm destroying myself with negative thoughts. The bad part is, it comes true. Instead of thinking something good, I go to think of something bad. :'( Such a failure. WHY WHY WHY?! WHY THIS KOLAVERI DI!!


During the game, I'm thinking of what position I should make, how to move, this and that. I'm not enjoying the game at all, like that first time I play the javelin. D: I'm in love with it. But this result really makes me feel disappointed TO THE MAX! Especially when other people asked me, "Erin you got win?" "Why? You trained so hard."  I don't know what should I reply to them, this shows how 'fail' I am. </3 I don't dare to face all of you all, especially members of Jentayu. D:

Sometimes, competitions and exams, also need some luck. Maybe for this time, I don't have any luck. God didn't bless me for this. Maybe, God wants me to train even harder and stronger for it. Let me to be stronger. I will train more hard for javelin in the future for next year's saringan if the teacher still gives me a chance. :) I hope the teacher will give me another chance, I will be very very thankful for it. ♥ And I will fight hard. Please?

After the competition, we have our studies as normal, well, I can say it's a fun one, EXCEPT FOR CHINESE. >:( I don't know why I'm starting to hate Chinese. Maybe, I got no friends inside, and also the teaching is quite boring for me, not the same teaching method during the primary anymore. I do understand why. Now, for our secondary school, one week we just have 3 periods of Chinese lesson, if I'm still in primary (SJKC) I got like more than 6 periods a week, that's why we can do more exercises and learn more  stuffs. ;) Totally different than now.

School ends now, and it still haven't over yet! I still got another acara at 4:30p.m... That means I need to stay back. But, it's impossible to call me to stay at school, doing nothing and wait until 4:30p.m! And I also need to go to 7-eleven to buy Molpoints. So I will also have my lunch at mamak there. ;) It's been so long I never go there for lunch! ♥ I went there with who? Guess! :D Hanu? Cheah? Dhurgaa? Julia? NO NO NO! This time I went there alone. :) I also don't know where I find the courage and braveness inside of me, I actually dare to walk to somewhere that I'm not really familiar with, ALONE. :3 It's an adventure. :3 Haha! 

Bought the things I want at 7-eleven, and then before I went to mamak and I saw Dhiya and Satren at the bookshop there. So I went to say 'Hi' with them. :3 And then I get RM 1 belanja from Satren to buy roti canai. x) HAHA! Thank you so much Satren. ;) They went back to school and I went to mamak. ;)

Some of our schoolmates are having their lunch at there as well. ;) So, I can still see some familiar faces there. I won't be so scared.. Still, I'm alone, #foreveralone as they said, it's really quite scary also.. :'( I'm really afraid that time... Skip the scare scare part, I had roti planta and MY FAVORITE SIRAP BANDUNG AS MY LUNCH! ♥

YUMMYY! ♥

BANDUNG!!!! THE LOVE! ♥

Taken using my phone's camera. :D TEEHEE. Thank God I'm not that #ForeverAlone after that. ;) Shuying so kind come and have lunch with me at the mamak. ;) She chatted a lot of her unforgettable trip yesterday. It was awesome though. :D I wish I could join too, but it's impossible for me. :X Don't ever dream of it. :3

After lunch, Shuying recommended me to a Ais Kacang stall. :D YAY! Dessert after meal. :D I love it. :3 Teehee. :D  I ordered a cendol while Shuying ordered a longan drink. :D

Cendol with my favorite RED BEANS!!! ♥

It tastes delicious! :DD OHHHMEEEGOSHHH! ♥ I WANT MORE! The ice is quite smooth and the sugar is sweet enough and nice, the cendol is nice the red bean is nice, everything it's nice! And it's quite big in size, and it just costs RM2.50 if you eat there. SO SO SO SO CHEAP! ♥ I will go there more often then. x)

Tell you what, I love my school more now. :DD Got so many nice foods to eat OMG. x) I LOVE IT! So many facilities and restaurant, soon, some more will be a Chatime opening beside the Oldtown White Coffee Menjalara there! :DD It's so near to my school , I think it only takes 15-20 minutes, or maybe less then, you can reach there already! :DD I will stay back at school everyday for Chatime once it's open. x) HAHA!

MY SCHOOL IS LIKE A HEAVEN PLACE. ♥

Ate so many cold things before the acara some more. -_____- I love foods, and I can't resist. :3 I can't stand the temptations. :3 IT'S SO SO SO NICE. :P HAHA! After the dessert, we went back to school. There's competition going on, run run run, jump jump jump and also throw throw throw. :3 Haha. x) The running is the most exciting one! Everyone will be cheering for their own rumah sukan! :D Me? OF COURSE IS JENTAYU AND MY FELLOW FRIENDS! Who take part in the competition. :3 And how shocking when I saw my classmates can actually run very very very fast, like Shiao Dong and Sharwin. OMG. SO SO SO FAST LIKE LIGHTING. Some more not short distance, is long distance. They run 3 rounds of our school's field. :O They got the stamina, OMG. >___< Pro!

Sitting next to my beloved moral teacher, Miss Hong during the competitions. :D It was so fun chatting with her and also with other friends. :D What I can say is the whole picture is nice, words can't describe it but when you feel it, you can feel that there's pure happiness of cheering for your friends. The whole situation is very lively. :D And the ones who are competing are so so serious, they're pro(s). Respect! Salute!

After awhile, I heard the teachers starting to call our names and acara, gotta go for it. But Hanu is not here! D: So so so panic that time. >____< Even when the game starts already, she never come. She said to me before, if she never come means, never come. So, we go on without her. ;) Comparing to lembing, this is much more easier. Just the ball is quite heavy. :3 And the teacher in charge is funny as well! :D He will make jokes. :3 So it makes us more relax during the competition. :D Of course, at the end, I didn't win, because I got not enough energy to throw, I still don't know how to control my energy and some more the teacher is laughing me about my style of throwing! >____< Don't know what's so funny about it. >___< Well, my furthest throw also just 4.28meters. While the first, second and third are 5 meters ++.. I never expect anything on this acara so I don't feel so sad. :D It's fun to play! Hope next time, I'm prepared and I can still go for it. ;)

My acara was over, so that means I can go home already. :3 But still, I went to the Ais Kacang stall again to take away for my mother. I want my mother to try. :3 And also I bought some goreng stuffs for her. :D Teehee, she likes this kind of stuffs. :3

Actually I want to zoom more nearer but I'm too scared of people watching me taking picture. And I actually want to take the situation of the students and teachers sitting there, and also the running running. :D I know, the people in the pictures all look like ants. X) It's a waste of space of posting this, I know.

After I take away the foods, it's like almost 5:00p.m++.. And I need to wait for my transport auntie to come and fetch me at 5:30p.m++. Waited alone outside the school compound. Singing to reduce my loneliness, I'm afraid of it. Since now I sing alone NOBODY will call me to "shh..." also.  :3

My auntie came at 5:30p.m, so I went home, relax and online. :3 Teehee. :D Looking forward to our Sports' day this Friday! :D It sure will be a busy week. :D  


Okayy, it's a super duper long post. :O Sorry for writing so many craps but if you finished it all, I thank you very much, and here's a cookie for you. :3 HAHA!


It's time for me to sleep, it's already 12a.m something, mum's gotta scold. And there's another day I won't get enough of sleep. :3

Chaos and goodnight. ;) ♥

It will pay off soon.

Dear Bloggie,

Well, here I am, come for a short update before I go to bed. Current time is already 11:34p.m and I don't know what happened to my internet connection it seems to be so laggie that my Youtube video can't even load properly, hanging at there. #nowplaying Jason Mraz - I Won't Give Up. :3

Had a lot of fun last week. ;) I really really do enjoyed myself so much. :D Last week Tuesday, it was the first time experiencing to take pictures with a DSLR, thank you so much to my senior who borrow his DSLR to us. ^___^ What I can say is... THE PICTURES ARE SO SO SO NICE! Even I just use Auto mode, the pictures are still nice, OMG. :O I want an over-priced DSLR now. x) HAHAHA! Nah, although I want it so badly, but I'm still a beginner.. :'( Aza-aza fighting for strengthen my photography skills! ;)

The same Tuesday, I had rumah sukan practice. This time, I learned how to throw the javelin. It was fun and also interesting. So I keep training the same move, which is make the javelin successfully interject into the ground. And that's the hardest part. You need to throw far and can make it into the ground in the same time. You will be disqualified if you can't make the javelin interject into the ground. D: And you know what, the teacher chose me to join the acara lembing and peluru for the coming saringan at Monday. OMG. I'm so so so nervous, you see, I never even join any sports since young, primary until now. D: This is the first time that I join the event. D: I'm so so so scared. So so so afraid. I don't have any experience. Maybe this is the time. Well, will try my best to throw as far as I could, too bad I don't have the people that I really really really hate it with my soul. :3 Wish me luck.

And last Friday, it was our school's teacher's day. :D I know it was kinda late for our school.... but, I did enjoyed all the performance. :D Well, I'm in the performance as well. :D Yi Jin, Ai Lynn and I, together we sang a song to the teacher. And the song is so original, it's written by my very talented friend Yi Jin. :D She's a pro. :3 I did enjoyed myself during the performance. Honestly saying, I AM SO SO SO SCARED that time. But thank God, it was quite successful. And I'm glad and proud of three of us. ♥ Girls power! :P Teeheee. And that time, it was also the FIRST time for me to do some performance in front of so many people during secondary's. :D That's my best experience ever. :D Thank you both so much for letting me experience all these. Everything's fun. ;D I love it when every performers are practicing, no matter dancing, singing, playing the instruments, everything's good! :D I love to see in the school the surroundings are lively. :D With MUSIC. ♥ Music makes our life better! When you walk by the staircases, school compound or anywhere inside the school, you can actually hear some guitar strings strumming, how nice is it? :D I love school surrounding with music, that's why I love the times when the school have events and they have performance to show, that time, the school will be the most lively time. ♥
Oh yeah, TO ALL THE PERFORMERS! YOU ALL ARE AWESOME AND I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH! ♥ Haha! 
Is either I go and download all the video and upload again to my bloggie or I put links for you guys to enjoy. :3 It's really good. So wait for my next blog post, it won't take so long. ;3

My lifestyle have become more active compare to the beginning of the year or even last year. :D I'm so busy with school activities and also outdoor activities, and of course, 'indoor activities' such as surfing the net every day is a must. :3 HAHA. I'm quite happy because of my lifestyle has starting to turn active. ;) I can also stay more healthy like that. :D Teehee.

Today, I'm having some 'emo' times in school. :'( During my Malay lesson, something makes me get angry and not more than 5 minutes, I'm not angry anymore but become sad because I started to think something else. I'm actually thinking, why I am not the same with other girls? :( Why am I so different when comparing to the other girls? :'( Why must I be the weirdo always and nobody likes me. :'( Sighs. A lot a lot more. I'm actually taking my friend, Kitty's advice, unique. Why must I be the same like others? Well, yeah, actually why? But still, I want to be the same. OMG, and that's confusing enough. Will continue this topic in the next blog post soon. So stay tuned to my 'emo' problems.

And the 'hottest' news, just now I went to check my weight on the scale in my house, AND I'M SO SO SO SHOCKED. I don't know whether is my scale broke already or what, at first time I stand on it, IT SHOWS A VERY VERY SHOCKING number of weight. But the second time, third time I stand on it, it shows a different number again. OMG. D: Now, I really really need to be on a diet, so next time, no matter what kind of scale I stand in, the good ones or the broken ones, it can still shows my weight in a quite smaller number. Well, will continue this topic in the next blog post soon.

Okayy, I'm actually lack of time now, because now it's my time to have my beauty sleep or else tomorrow I will wake up as a human 'panda'. Haha. And I'm also quite tired but these few days I don't even have the chance to take a very comfy nap. D: Aww... I miss naps so much.

NO more words, no more! NO MORE! STOP! Goodnight everyone and chaos. :3
But... ahem, let me to share some flower pictures that I taken in school during both Photography club time, sorry for putting pictures at the end of the blog post. :3

Taken last week, with my phone. ;) 

Our national flower. ;) Taken this week, during the photo hunt. 

Last but not least......

Me with a DSLR! :3 Credits to Slo and Hong Seng.

I LOVE FLOWERS! HEEEEEE.

One day 48 hours please.

Hello everyone! :D I hope everyone is doing fine. Long time no see. No sign of me blogging during the holidays even a word. -_- Too bad, nothing to blog, no inspiration and nothing.

During the holidays, nothing much I done, every thing sure won't leave the computer. Just walk through some malls and went back to Seremban for our family BBQ session and also karaoke with cousins. ;) Well, at least something 'fun' during holiday happened.

Two weeks just passed like that. Why is the holidays seemed so short? D: I need more of it. During the holidays, I sleep at midnight and wake up at afternoon, that was the best part. I get to sleep and wake up whenever I want. But still, I didn't get enough of sleep during the holidays also. -_- #Sighs

The school's on, everything turns back normal, extraordinary normal. OMG. How to say? Hmm... What I can say is my life becomes more busier now, packed with a lot of things. :( I need to study in the morning, tuition/co-curricular activities at school (thank God the activities will be ended in this month), jogging, piano practice, homeworks, and also my online game. :( Haha, still got time to play online game? Nahh, it's just because I opened a new guild/family inside the game, so it's impossible I just leave my members there like that. I need to be a good role-model to be active in game. :3 So, after I finished all the important things, will gaming for awhile even though I'm extremely tired.

It's a kind of complicated feeling when the school reopens, I don't know whether want to feel happy or sad. Happy it's because I can finally meet with my friends and play with them, no need to be so boring at home, doing nothing except for playing the computer. For those, I need to sacrifice my time of sleeping. :'( And I'm so so so so tired and end up being lazy, ALL THE TIMES. Sighs.

Will try my best to get used of it, and back on track to the normal lifestyle that I MUST have. -_- It's hard but what to do?  PMR trial is around the corner, and so is PMR. Aza-aza fighting to every form 3 students. ;) Of course including me as well. Haha.

Okayy, gotta go now to jog with friend, *ON DIET!* Wish me luck, and chaos. ;)

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger.

Hello. :) I think I'll just start my story straight... No need to have long opening... :) Because I think for my blog post today will be kinda long.. :)

Finally, MID-YEAR EXAM WAS OVER YESTERDAY! :DD Actually I thought of blogging yesterday but I'm too tired so..... :3 heeeheehee... :3 For the last day papers are Kemahiran Hidup and Moral... :3 Well, because it's the last day of the exam, and I already have the holiday mood... so... I don't really study real hard for this last two subjects.. But for Moral, I never even study for it. You know, need to memorize all the definisi and also kata kunci all those stuffs... I never touch. :3 I just simply read through.. because I thought it won't come out that many... every time when I memorize, it will just come out one question of the definisi and make me so pissed. -_- Now, when I never study for it, it come out like 5 nilai murni and call you to write all the definisi... some more one question is 4 marks.. so.. what can I say my 20 marks fly away already... Sayonara.... x) But luckily for the kata kunci part I'm still okayy with it because before the exam my friend, Nana asked me to help her for memorizing the nilai's definisi and kata kunci. Well, she sure did well in the exam. :3 For the KH paper was okayy, the questions are easy but still, it's confusing enough.

After the last paper, after the exam, FINALLY IT'S SOME RELAXATION TIME! :DD I would like to take this opportunity to thank Dhiya for the ice cream treat, even though it's just RM 1. (But for the last week, I treated him a RM 2.50 drumstick... -_-) So, soon it will be another treat, for that time only I will post some nice ice cream pictures. :3 Haha.

After the exam, I still can't fully relax myself. Yesterday and today, Yi Jin, Ai Lynn and I are practicing for the teachers' day performance. :) We will be singing on that day.. :) We will be singing the song that written by Yi Jin babe. ;) She's a pro. :D The song is nice. :3 I'm happy because I get to join them for the performance.. :) But on the another side, I feel so down about  it.. I don't feel I fit in.. :/ When we're practicing at the closed hall today in school during school hours, seeing other people practicing, Yi Jin and Ai Lynn can actually fit in with others performers while I'm standing at aside, seeing.. I wish could join, but just... :/ Sighs.... And then also, for my singing part, I don't think I give out a lot... :/ Maybe during the real performance time, some people will think that, "Why this girl just sing a little bit also want to join inside? Waste of space." ... :/ I really really feel so down.... all of these because I don't have self-confidence. Really, I don't have. :( Sighs... Still, I think it's awesome when four of us (Gan, Yi Jin, Ai Lynn) were singing at the Bilik Media 2. :D That's really really awesome and I really really enjoyed it.. :D Thank you all so much.. :) 

After I finished my practice for singing, I went back to class during the second period after recess. Asked my friends about the exam papers, did the teacher gave back any papers. Oh yeah, there's a happy news to say, before I went for my practice, during the History period, my teacher, gave us back our papers. I'm so shocked and surprised that I actually improved my marks and also good marks I get. Unexpectedly, I got 73% for History. :O I WAS LIKE OMG. It's been so long so long so so so long since the last time I get an 70++ for my History.. want to know how long was that? The first exam for my Form 1. -_- Yeah, grandmother's story already. I'm so so so happy, really happy for it.. :) Wow, fantastic baby. :3 

But... but.. BUT!! But... :( When I know I actually get 23 correct out of 60 questions for Geography... I'm so so so pissed...... WHY? WHY? WHY?! You know what? Just ONE more QUESTION, THEN I CAN PASS MY GEOGRAPHY PAPER!!!! :'( Why in this year, whatever subject I failed, sure fail with ONE MORE QUESTION THEN PASS.... 38%... I'm so speechless.. really really speechless.. From the first exam 74% dropped to 50++/60++ during the second exam... now.. SOME MORE DON'T KNOW WHY I CAN FAILED. .:'( Maybe it because I too concentrate on my Science paper that day then I ignored my Geography... I should read both subjects.. :( Sighs... Some more for this mid year exam all the results will be printed out on the 'report paper' and parents will come and take the results on the open day... Till then, I will be dead and I need to face a lot of consequences... :(

I don't wish to say out the things but what I can say is, totally terrible and horrible condition I will be facing soon after it.. Lots of torture... Actually I don't really care of my results this time. Why? It's not the PMR trial or the PMR real thing (For my 'special' school, they will do the class streaming based on your PMR trial results, not the PMR real thing first.) I'm still thinking of this contradiction, then for what we are still taking our PMR? -_- Sighs.. I don't dare to think anymore for those consequences it's like a connection.. After this happens, that will happen next, and this, that, those, these........... it's a non-stop story, I also don't know why I need to face so many problems. No, it supposed to be MUCH.. I can't stand it so I just burst it into tears... I can't control anymore... :/ 

Well, yeah, I cried in the class again.. :( I can't cry except for school and within the area without my mother, I don't want my mother to worry.. that's why.. :/ So I go and trouble my friends in school.. :( Sighs.. I take care of one's feelings, but ignore another's. I cried in class, I think all of my classmates will find it weird, because always I laughed crazily, laughed hard in the class. What I do I will laugh.. I will smile... suddenly I cry... they will be like avoid me...? Think that I'm like a disease..? :( One friend of mine said I forced myself to cry... I don't understand, I don't get the meaning... I forced myself to cry...? ........ I don't know why.. Impossible for one person to keep staying strong.. no matter how strong is that person, still, there's a weak side of his/her. And maybe, some friends will think I'm actually acting some drama out maybe? I don't know... :( This is what I feel since last year when I cried... When I laugh, everyone will be there for me, but when I cry, and that's the time when I need them the most.. nobody stays... :'( This is hurtful.. </3 Really... But, at least, at least.. every time.. Hanu is there for me.. :') She some more still says something that really really touched my heart... Hanu, you are the best I ever had... :') I love you so much my dear.... Without you , how am I gonna continue to stay strong...? :') Thank you...  Remember Hanu, when you need me, I will be there for you as well. ;) You can count on me like one two three I'll be there...... ;) 

Hanu is the one who listens to me, listens to every word I said.. she never missed a word.. I thank her for being a good listener... After I say all my problems out to her.. I feel more better and starting to stop crying... :) And after I calm down myself, stopped crying, the girls Kalai and Cheah, the boys, Naquib, Firdaus, Dhiya, Edward and Satren.. come and ask me what actually happened, why I cried... But my mind's blank, I don't know what to say anymore.. But still, for them, they actually cheer me up... :') I really really thank them so much... :') They are such good friends... :') Although I just be with them for 5 months (Kalai, Naquib, Firdaus, Dhiya, Edward, Satren), but they are still willing to give me a helping hand and be with me when I'm down... :) I feel touched.. :') You know, at the beginning of the year, no, at the time when I know we're going to be classmates, I never never ever thought that our friendship will be that good even though it's just awhile.. :) What can I say to you all is... I really really love you all... :') ♥ (Don't think too much, it's just a pure love feeling towards friends.) Fluffy, let's stay strong.. we can defeat all those problems that we have in our life. :) Keep on believing... ♥

Although I don't have a perfect family, I still have my beloved friends... who will support me when I'm down.. :D I thank God for this, this is already more than enough. ♥

Well, so I've decided to enjoy my holiday and forget my marks, I will only tell my parents about my Geography marks days before or a week before the open day... Then I no need to be dead so early.. right? :) After a big cry, I must be more stronger now... :) Must remember not to show my weak side every time.. :) STAY STRONG. 

WOW. SUCH A LONG POST, I hope you all really have the patience to read until here, if you successfully read until here, without leaving a word. Here, take this cookie as a reward. x) Haha! 

Okayy, should stop now, it's super super long enough. :3 

Chaos. ♥