Hello. It's been a very long since I come here and say at least a 'Hello'. Well, I clearly know that well. ;)
During the month of July, I don't know what happened to me, I don't have the time and mood to update my bloggie, and also other thing else. Bad July. Now, July was over, August has come. I bet in this new month, I will have a brand new attitude to confront all kinds of stuff.
So, pretty much nothing happened to me July. The unforgettable ones are, I had so much fun together with my classmates a.k.a crazy friends a.k.a besties! :D And also the farewell party we made for our beloved Miss Ellaine Hong. ;) She's once our Kemahiran Hidup teacher and also Moral teacher. :) A very very good one. I miss her so much! :( Still, I wish she will be having a good time with her University life. ;) And please don't forget us, same to us, we will never ever forget you. :)
Okayy. Recently, I just finished my PMR trials. What I can say is, I don't know what kind of bad results I will get, I just hope that I won't get any failings. One failing will hurt my heart so much. Because my school will be using the PMR trial exam to do our class streaming for next year. Okayy, I know that's kinda strange but what to do. School rules are rules, we can't change it. So, the trial for Science is hard. Very very hard. For some I don't even see questions like that before. What can I say is, PLEASE, MAY GOD BLESS ME. Please, at least at least a C or B. I know I can't get A. But another funny thing is, for the people who always following the updates of my bloggie, you all will know that, MUST know that I HATE MATHEMATICS VERY VERY MUCH. Now, I think, maybe my MATHEMATICS will get higher marks than the Science. -_____- Everything changed. OMG. And for those subjects like Sejarah and Kemahiran Hidup is what I scare the most for now. I scare both of those subjects I will fail. D: Firstly, Science and Sejarah are in the same day, I focus on Science paper more than my Sejarah paper. At the end, I study nothing about Sejarah. Secondly, during my Kemahiran Hidup paper, don't know what happened to me, headache strikes no mood to do the paper. Honestly saying I just want those two papers to pass with a D also nevermind, AT LEAST A PASS.
My results dropped a lot, seriously. Comparing last year's and this year's. OMG. WHAT A DIFFERENCE. And I don't know what happened to me. I changed a lot this year. I'm more into enjoying my life than sacrifice my time to study for the future. Maybe it because the school give up on me and I give up my school? Nah. I think it only contains 80% of it. x) HAHAHA! Just kidding. Well, since they change the format of the results. I don't really care of my marks anymore. The percentage is nothing anymore. So, I won't aim for marks. I aim for 'cukup makan'. Enough then okayy already. I won't hope for more.
Conclusion is, I hope I won't fail any subjects, and then I still manage to get into Science stream or at least a sub-Science FIRST. I will study hard, BOOST MY RESULTS during the real PMR thingy. School, you just wait and see. ;) Me making the difference. ;) P/s: I hope I really can do so....... Wish me luck on studying though.
Actually I come here today is to share my opinion, thinking on this particular thingy.. I feel so strange that, why everyone is not the same? Not to say the outer appearance, that hurts a lot. </3 Let's say about the inner side today.
In this world, so many people are living in this world, living in the same earth, sharing the same air, sharing the same universe and also a lot a lot of things. We are the same in this kind of thing. But, why? Say until feelings and characteristics, everyone is not the same, in EVERY moment?
Characteristics, this is kinda interesting. People are born in different ways of characteristic. It can be kind, polite, happy go lucky, smart, generous, graceful and lots more. But some, in an interesting way of their own special kind of unique, they are selfish, careless, reckless and lots more also. But what I can say is, everyone is born KIND, just the way of their thinking and the way of their act changed their attitude. Well, you can be what you want, though.
Feelings, this is a very very strange, special and actually words can't describe what feelings really are. Everyone in the world now has different feelings now. Like some people are sad now because of their results, some people are happy because good luck come and knock at their doorbells. Some people like me, are feeling curious on something... Feelings, there are so many many many, or maybe MUCH.. because it's uncountable...
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Let's have an example for this. One of them is so sad because of something while another one is so so so happy because he gets what he wants. For me, I will be sad and happy in the same time as well for them. One is very very sad while another is very very happy. It's like the sky and the ground. These two things, you can't even relate them together. So, I'm feeling quite complicated. A mixture of sad and happiness, and that's kinda.............. kinda......... don't know what to do.
What I can conclude is, when one's sad, they feel that happiness is quite far away from them. When one's happy, they don't know actually there are so many people are feeling sad at that moment, because they are very very happy. Sighs, I also don't know how to say about this. Not to say one cannot be happy or sad, just why everyone can't be happy in the same time. I know that's real strange if that really happens.
When one's happy, they will instantly forget everything they been through, those hard, tough moments. When one's sad, they will instantly forget everything they had, those happiness, and wonderful times. What I can say is, sometimes, us, humans, don't know how to appreciate for what we have and also being those kind of... how to say.. ridiculously forgetful when they're enjoying the time of their life on something, I mean those not permanent stuffs. Of course, that includes me, for doing all those things. :3
Why? Even though we know the theory and also the cycle of how it goes. But, everyone of us, sure, will make this kind of mistake. THE BIGGEST ONE, WE WILL NEVER APPRECIATE OURSELVES PROPERLY AND ALSO BEING GRATEFUL FOR WHAT WE HAVE. That's the ugliest truth, that we never know.
*SHORT PAUSE*
I'm feeling so lazy to continue this topic, OMG, I wrote so long already. -_-
People always let greediness go into their minds. WE WANT MORE spirit. Yes, that's it. GREEDY. And also. SELFISH. I want more of my happiness but I don't want any sadness. Yeah, who don't want a life like that? But it's impossible. Everyone will go through happiness and sadness in their life no matter how is it. Just, how we confront it, it's either with a smile or a frown.
What I can say is, we must try to be more optimistic in everything no matter is good or bad. Try to think of something more positive related to it, so you might not feel that bad. And no matter what happens, we MUST NOT give up, no no no. WE MUST FIGHT UNTIL THE END. At least you did try. ;) But of course not to call you to face the problem alone, you can bring some power to knock them off more easily by sharing it with your FRIENDS and they might/may help you in some ways. ;) Unity is power. And also don't look down on one's power as well. ;)
Okayy, I don't care, this must come to one end already. -__- But now I don't know how to end it, so let's just.......... let it be? Okayy, serious serious. Having different feelings is normal, well, we are a human being, not a robot. *DUH* So it's okayy to smile, and it's also okayy to cry. ;) Do anything that will let you feel more relieved, but not something illegal for sure. -_- So light up the dark with a smile, fill up the blank pages of life with colours. ;)
Okayy, I'm so tired of typing now. -__- SO MANY WORDS TODAY. I'm quite pro huh? HAHAHA. x)
Once again, if anybody reads my post for today until here, I WILL BE SO SO THANKFUL because you actually wasted your precious time on my post. :3 Haha. And sorry there's no picture to share for today. And that's the reason of my lame blog here. Haha.
See you soon. ;) Looking forward to here. ;) Do come visit often. Thanks and chaos. ;)
