I don't wish to waste my time everyday just lying on my bed. I actually feel quite sad because I've wasted almost 2 years of my life on bed. Two years' time of my life that I'm never gonna get back. My time, my youth, all gone just like that.
I know that due to my condition like this I have no choice but to deal with an unproductive life. Every day when I scroll through FB, Insta and other SNS, I feel really envy of my friends. They can have their own plans, they can go to study, they can go to work, they can go to travel while me just lying on my bed doing nothing with my life.
I cried whenever I thought of this matter. Then I started to ask, "Why?". Why others can be healthy and leading their own lives, while me have to be sick and not progressing at all some more I have to depend on my mother to take care of my daily needs.
So I've made a decision to be productive IN MY OWN WAY. Although the things I can do for now is limited, but I will always try my best to challenge the limit!
Currently I'm trying to be productive by learning a new language which is Japanese. I'm learning Japanese through an app called "Memrise". I strongly recommend this app to people who wants to learn other languages than their own native language. Other languages such as Chinese, Korean, French, Italian, Spanish & etc are available to learn FOR FREE. Besides than languages, you can also learn other topics such as ABRSM theory, coding, programming & etc. And the way of learning is very easy for you to memorize and it's kinda fun and addictive too! It makes you wanna learn more! (If only you're very interested with that certain subject)
Nextly, I am planning to open more online shops to organize my selling items as I mentioned before on my last blog post. By doing so I hope I can earn more money to support my family of two because obviously my current online shop income is IMPOSSIBLE to even afford 3 meals for a day. But still it's always better than not earning anything at all, I'm grateful for it. I'm taking baby steps, not rushing to earn a lot of money straight away of course. I believe one day my hard work and dedication will be rewarded. Perseverance is the key!
I will blog more often if my condition allows me to. I always wanted to write blog entries everyday to record my everyday activities and feelings, like a diary. Will try to make it happen soon or later. :)
I must work hard to be a better person for myself! Because clearly I'm extremely not satisfied with my own self now. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Whether I like it or not, this is me. Some facts of myself cannot be changed, but I can always try to make things better.
I like to be productive and I hope laziness doesn't kill it for me HAHAHAHAHAHA
Last but not least, THANK YOU SMARTPHONE, TABLETS AND INTERNET IF NOT MY SICK LIFE WILL BE BORED AF AND I WILL BE REALLY LIFELESS AND NONE OF THESE STUFFS CAN BE DONE TO BE PRODUCTIVE I LOVE TECHNOLOGY SO MUCH HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Tata, xoxo. ❤️
