What doesn't kill you makes you stronger.

Hello. :) I think I'll just start my story straight... No need to have long opening... :) Because I think for my blog post today will be kinda long.. :)

Finally, MID-YEAR EXAM WAS OVER YESTERDAY! :DD Actually I thought of blogging yesterday but I'm too tired so..... :3 heeeheehee... :3 For the last day papers are Kemahiran Hidup and Moral... :3 Well, because it's the last day of the exam, and I already have the holiday mood... so... I don't really study real hard for this last two subjects.. But for Moral, I never even study for it. You know, need to memorize all the definisi and also kata kunci all those stuffs... I never touch. :3 I just simply read through.. because I thought it won't come out that many... every time when I memorize, it will just come out one question of the definisi and make me so pissed. -_- Now, when I never study for it, it come out like 5 nilai murni and call you to write all the definisi... some more one question is 4 marks.. so.. what can I say my 20 marks fly away already... Sayonara.... x) But luckily for the kata kunci part I'm still okayy with it because before the exam my friend, Nana asked me to help her for memorizing the nilai's definisi and kata kunci. Well, she sure did well in the exam. :3 For the KH paper was okayy, the questions are easy but still, it's confusing enough.

After the last paper, after the exam, FINALLY IT'S SOME RELAXATION TIME! :DD I would like to take this opportunity to thank Dhiya for the ice cream treat, even though it's just RM 1. (But for the last week, I treated him a RM 2.50 drumstick... -_-) So, soon it will be another treat, for that time only I will post some nice ice cream pictures. :3 Haha.

After the exam, I still can't fully relax myself. Yesterday and today, Yi Jin, Ai Lynn and I are practicing for the teachers' day performance. :) We will be singing on that day.. :) We will be singing the song that written by Yi Jin babe. ;) She's a pro. :D The song is nice. :3 I'm happy because I get to join them for the performance.. :) But on the another side, I feel so down about  it.. I don't feel I fit in.. :/ When we're practicing at the closed hall today in school during school hours, seeing other people practicing, Yi Jin and Ai Lynn can actually fit in with others performers while I'm standing at aside, seeing.. I wish could join, but just... :/ Sighs.... And then also, for my singing part, I don't think I give out a lot... :/ Maybe during the real performance time, some people will think that, "Why this girl just sing a little bit also want to join inside? Waste of space." ... :/ I really really feel so down.... all of these because I don't have self-confidence. Really, I don't have. :( Sighs... Still, I think it's awesome when four of us (Gan, Yi Jin, Ai Lynn) were singing at the Bilik Media 2. :D That's really really awesome and I really really enjoyed it.. :D Thank you all so much.. :) 

After I finished my practice for singing, I went back to class during the second period after recess. Asked my friends about the exam papers, did the teacher gave back any papers. Oh yeah, there's a happy news to say, before I went for my practice, during the History period, my teacher, gave us back our papers. I'm so shocked and surprised that I actually improved my marks and also good marks I get. Unexpectedly, I got 73% for History. :O I WAS LIKE OMG. It's been so long so long so so so long since the last time I get an 70++ for my History.. want to know how long was that? The first exam for my Form 1. -_- Yeah, grandmother's story already. I'm so so so happy, really happy for it.. :) Wow, fantastic baby. :3 

But... but.. BUT!! But... :( When I know I actually get 23 correct out of 60 questions for Geography... I'm so so so pissed...... WHY? WHY? WHY?! You know what? Just ONE more QUESTION, THEN I CAN PASS MY GEOGRAPHY PAPER!!!! :'( Why in this year, whatever subject I failed, sure fail with ONE MORE QUESTION THEN PASS.... 38%... I'm so speechless.. really really speechless.. From the first exam 74% dropped to 50++/60++ during the second exam... now.. SOME MORE DON'T KNOW WHY I CAN FAILED. .:'( Maybe it because I too concentrate on my Science paper that day then I ignored my Geography... I should read both subjects.. :( Sighs... Some more for this mid year exam all the results will be printed out on the 'report paper' and parents will come and take the results on the open day... Till then, I will be dead and I need to face a lot of consequences... :(

I don't wish to say out the things but what I can say is, totally terrible and horrible condition I will be facing soon after it.. Lots of torture... Actually I don't really care of my results this time. Why? It's not the PMR trial or the PMR real thing (For my 'special' school, they will do the class streaming based on your PMR trial results, not the PMR real thing first.) I'm still thinking of this contradiction, then for what we are still taking our PMR? -_- Sighs.. I don't dare to think anymore for those consequences it's like a connection.. After this happens, that will happen next, and this, that, those, these........... it's a non-stop story, I also don't know why I need to face so many problems. No, it supposed to be MUCH.. I can't stand it so I just burst it into tears... I can't control anymore... :/ 

Well, yeah, I cried in the class again.. :( I can't cry except for school and within the area without my mother, I don't want my mother to worry.. that's why.. :/ So I go and trouble my friends in school.. :( Sighs.. I take care of one's feelings, but ignore another's. I cried in class, I think all of my classmates will find it weird, because always I laughed crazily, laughed hard in the class. What I do I will laugh.. I will smile... suddenly I cry... they will be like avoid me...? Think that I'm like a disease..? :( One friend of mine said I forced myself to cry... I don't understand, I don't get the meaning... I forced myself to cry...? ........ I don't know why.. Impossible for one person to keep staying strong.. no matter how strong is that person, still, there's a weak side of his/her. And maybe, some friends will think I'm actually acting some drama out maybe? I don't know... :( This is what I feel since last year when I cried... When I laugh, everyone will be there for me, but when I cry, and that's the time when I need them the most.. nobody stays... :'( This is hurtful.. </3 Really... But, at least, at least.. every time.. Hanu is there for me.. :') She some more still says something that really really touched my heart... Hanu, you are the best I ever had... :') I love you so much my dear.... Without you , how am I gonna continue to stay strong...? :') Thank you...  Remember Hanu, when you need me, I will be there for you as well. ;) You can count on me like one two three I'll be there...... ;) 

Hanu is the one who listens to me, listens to every word I said.. she never missed a word.. I thank her for being a good listener... After I say all my problems out to her.. I feel more better and starting to stop crying... :) And after I calm down myself, stopped crying, the girls Kalai and Cheah, the boys, Naquib, Firdaus, Dhiya, Edward and Satren.. come and ask me what actually happened, why I cried... But my mind's blank, I don't know what to say anymore.. But still, for them, they actually cheer me up... :') I really really thank them so much... :') They are such good friends... :') Although I just be with them for 5 months (Kalai, Naquib, Firdaus, Dhiya, Edward, Satren), but they are still willing to give me a helping hand and be with me when I'm down... :) I feel touched.. :') You know, at the beginning of the year, no, at the time when I know we're going to be classmates, I never never ever thought that our friendship will be that good even though it's just awhile.. :) What can I say to you all is... I really really love you all... :') ♥ (Don't think too much, it's just a pure love feeling towards friends.) Fluffy, let's stay strong.. we can defeat all those problems that we have in our life. :) Keep on believing... ♥

Although I don't have a perfect family, I still have my beloved friends... who will support me when I'm down.. :D I thank God for this, this is already more than enough. ♥

Well, so I've decided to enjoy my holiday and forget my marks, I will only tell my parents about my Geography marks days before or a week before the open day... Then I no need to be dead so early.. right? :) After a big cry, I must be more stronger now... :) Must remember not to show my weak side every time.. :) STAY STRONG. 

WOW. SUCH A LONG POST, I hope you all really have the patience to read until here, if you successfully read until here, without leaving a word. Here, take this cookie as a reward. x) Haha! 

Okayy, should stop now, it's super super long enough. :3 

Chaos. ♥

Wo ai ni, I love you, 520.

Hello, I'm here to blog for awhile. ;) Since today it's a quite special day, that is 'Happy 520', once again, 520 means 'Wo Ai Ni' in Chinese and it means 'I love you'. ;) So happy I love you day everyone, hope you all did enjoyed your day with your love ones.

So.. how's your day? ;D Girls girls, did someone special give you all an unforgettable, unexpected surprise today? :D For the single girls, did someone come and propose to you today on 13:14p.m or 5:20 p.m.? That will be so sweet. ;D And boys, well, it must be a memorable one with your partner today eh? ;) And how's the proposing going, single boys? :D I wish you all succeed to be together with your love ones. ♥

For me?....

Picture source: Facebook

Well, that picture explains a lot.
Yeah, #foreveralone. I'm single, and pretty much nothing happened to me today. I'm not even feeling happy on 520 eve and also today. I don't think it's a good day for me. :( I feel quite moody and sad due to some problems I'm having now. Sighs, don't think about the unhappy stuffs. Let's say something nicer..

Since today is 520, and I saw a lot of my Facebook friends had celebrated with their love ones, girlfriend/boyfriend, wifey/hubby. It's just so sweet. :) I hope I have a boyfriend. :3 Haha, yeah, a boyfriend. Just I haven't meet with the right one. :D So I will be waiting patiently for his appearance, and I hope he comes soon into my life. And then we will be happily ever after until the end. ♥ Haha, I really really do hope so. Especially those fairy tales' endings. I will be expecting the unexpected now. :3

Why don't I take action first? Ha, I hope I could. If I got a person that I like. Too bad, I don't have. So, I will just wait for someone to come for me, and see whether I got feelings for him or not. :3 Or maybe he can make me feel touched. :D I know my thinking is kinda 'bad'.. just it's hard for me to like someone.. :D I don't simply have those love love feelings to a boy.

So let me to be #foreveralone. T-T No one will come to me, I know. T-T Look at my face then you will know, who wants a girl like this? :( Not pretty, don't have any attractive personalities.... </3 WHY, WHY?! Please tell me why? D:  #LowSelfEsteem

On the second thought, I don't think this is the suitable time for me to talk all these still. :3 I'm still young, I'm still a small kid. :3 I want candy. :3 HAHAHA! For the adults they will think us as "a small people with a lots of massive thoughts". Well, what can I tell to the adults is, we watched too many of those Cantonese dramas, Chinese Dramas, Malay Dramas, English Dramas, Taiwan Dramas, all kinds of movies, all kinds of love novels... well yeah, that really changed our mind to be not that innocent. :3 NOWADAYS MEDIA. So don't blame us for that .:D

Although I don't have a partner to celebrate this day together, still, I have a lot of my beloved friends. :D 520 day can also be a day to spend with friends. :D But too bad, today's Sunday, no school. -_-
I would like to tell all of my beloved friends, no matter what race you are, HAPPY 520 day, HAPPY ILY day. :D I wish you all enjoyed your day. :D And don't forget that I love you all, no matter girl or boy. ♥ Don't think too much I'm not a lesbian and I'm not a player as well. :3 Haha. I really really love you all my friends, you all raised me up when I'm down. You all are so supportive. :D I don't dare to think my days without you all. :D Loves. So muchie.

Well, here I would like to dedicate more specially to my 3 Cekal classmates, I thank God for letting us to be in a same class, this is our fate, without fate, we won't get to know each other. :D Thank you for coming inside my life and make it more colourful and happy. :D We created so many crazy memories, even though it's just May now. (May it's gonna end soon, soon.) But when I think we actually just have 6 months more to be together as classmates, I feel like crying, I don't want to leave you all. :'( I better stop thinking negative stuffs, we still got a lot of time to spend together, so don't waste it. :D I hope we all can be happy and cooperate together to be the BEST CLASS EVER! (AND BE MORE CRAZIER!) :D  I hope, next year, we can unite too. ♥ Let's fight for PMR and also good luck in your future. :D May God bless you all. ♥ I love you all so much, very much. And thank you all so much. :') We are super super champions, forever.

Okayy, let's make an ending to this post now. Janice came to my house just now to give me a gift! :D Which is a phone casing. :D AND IT'S SOOOOOO CUTEEEEE!! OHHMEEGOSHHH. ♥

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Erm, the image it's a little bit too dark...

ISN'T IT CUTE?!?!! :DDD I LOVE IT SO MUCH! :DDDD And I LOVE RILAKKUMA! :DD WHAT A CUTE TEDDYY BEARRRR! RAWRRR! :3 Haha! I'm insane. :3 Mwahahaha. ;3 Thank you so much Janice for giving me this cute Rilakkuma casing. And some more for my phone it's hard to find nice casing like this, my phone is an SE Arc S, remember? :) Awww, I still love this so much! :D Happy 520 to you, Janice! :DD ♥  My 520 gift is simply awesome, heheh. :3

Oopsie, it seems that I blogged a lot today. :D That's a good sign, that means I'm still interested in blogging. :D Haha. OH YEAH. Tomorrow I will be having my Science and Geography paper, need to sleep early and wake up early tomorrow to study again for those papers. I already gave up my Geography paper anyways, I will just concentrate on my Science paper. :P Imma little bad girl. :3

So wish me luck on tomorrow's exam, wish all 3 Cekal-ians luck, and also all the Malurians who are having exam tomorrow, GOOD LUCK AND GOD BLESS! :D

Okayy, it's time to go, it's not early now. Better get my beauty sleep. Goodnight, tata, chaos.

I won't give up.

Yo, what's up? ;) Hello, it's quite a long time, again. I feel so bad to say that, I have lost my interest on blogging, I don't know why. Now I think that blogging is a kind of forcing. :/ Maybe I'm not blogging in the way I like. I think I should change the way of blogging. But, no worries, I will still keep this bloggie on. Just a little bit, dusty.

Finally, IT'S FRIDAY! :D Well, just finished my both Maths paper for today. My comment about that: For paper one Maths, difficulty level: Easier than medium, but because of the circles. Everything's gone. But I guess I can still score at least 25/40 for that... IT'S MORE THAN ENOUGH! For paper two? Nah, once I see all those questions, my mind is already thinking of "giving up". Seriously, it's SUPER DUPER HARD. But for the Algebraic Expression, Algebraic Formulae and Indices saved me. I never thought these chapters saved me. OHMEEGOSHH. Of course, I sure will leave some blanks on the paper. Always. :3 #mystyle
The blanks are for questions like linear equation, transformation and locus. Seriously, I don't even know what's the question is asking me to do. -_- ISH. (M)ental (A)buse (T)o (H)uman - I hope you all agree with that.

All of that is already become the past. So, let's don't mention about it, again. -_- FINALLY THE BURDEN IS OFFFFF! YAYYYY! :3 I feel so happy! But, there's still some papers to go. Two more exam days, and everything's over!! :DDD I'm waiting for that day to come. :3 Teeheee. Must fight for Science, Geography and also KH. Hope I can get good marks for those subjects.

Okayy, it's already hit my blogging limit, I don't know what to continue anymore. No, it supposed to be I DON'T KNOW HOW TO CONTINUE ANYMORE. :/ Nevermind, don't force don't force. Or else I will feel that blogging is stressing again. -_- OMG. WHAT HAPPENED TO ME ARGH. #MindBlank

BYEBYEE, will come for more frequent updates. Please, forget me not. Lot of loves. ;) Chaos.

Last last Saturday's date.

Dear Bloggie,

Here comes another update. I'll make it fast. ;)

Well, for the last last Saturday, 21/4, my ex-neighbor, Janice, brought me to One Utama's Neway for karaoke! :D Teehee, I'm so happy and also I'm so excited! :D

I won't say much on this post, because basically, we are focus on singing and eating some nice cakes. :P Let the pictures tell the story. :3

Yeah, I'm ready to sing my heart out! ♥

For the 'singers'. ;) 

The sweet couple. ;) ♥

The magnificent cakes.

Something related to pandan? 

I LOVE THIS SO MUCH! THIS IS SO NICE! :DD ♥

SUSHI!! :DDD ♥

Some nice bread. ;)

THIS TASTES LIKE HEAVEN! :DDD OMG! ♥

This is nice. :3 

I forgotten what drink is this..... but it's not mine also. :X

She's cute. :) 

The first time I try to eat oyster like that, it's nice. ;) 

Janice and I. ;) *

Ice Cream. ;DD

Drinks for three. ;) 

So this is the end of the post. ;) I really enjoyed myself during the karaoke session. :P Thank you so much, Janice and also her boyfriend bring me to have fun. ;) So much loves. ♥ 

So, please enjoy the pictures, even though some of those have some 'angle error', haha. :)

Chaos.