Carrying high expectations from teachers and seniors for my rejam lembing acara makes me more afraid of it. They spent a lot of time on me, teaches me, train together with me. Some more before the competition, a senior of mine, call me and say, "Erin, you must get the first prize, it's the time for you to pay off your hard work, or else you trained two hours under the sun that time what for? Today right? So you can." After I heard this, I'm so so so happy but on the other side I'm quite scared because I may disappoint them. I'm a noobie who don't know sports, you should know that. Okayy, in a nice way, newbie.
There's four times for us peserta to throw, one time is for the trial and the other three times they will start counting the mars. When I saw the other competitors throw so so so so so far, I'm getting more afraid. For sometimes, my performance won't be so steady. You know, for the javelin, the sharp part of it need to poke the ground only considered as pass. I'm afraid that I can't even poke the ground with the javelin. :( For the trial, I did great, the javelin steadily poked the ground. I'm happy, but that doesn't count. Okayy, things got serious. I throw again for the first time, this time I failed. The whole javelin dropped on the ground. So I'm convincing myself, "I still got two more chance, don't waste it." For the second time, the same situation happened ONCE MORE. The whole javelin dropped on the ground without poking anywhere. I'm more afraid now. Because that time, someone has the furthest throwing point which is 12++ meters.. For the third time, I tell myself I must make the javelin to poke the ground, no matter how near or how fair it is, I don't care already. I cannot be that 'fail' to keep disqualified for so many times. :'( Well, at last, finally I poked the ground with 6 meters ++ only.
What a distance I say. Well, I failed to get a position. There's still good news! My best buddy, Hanu, she got second place for it! ;D Hip hip horray for Jentayu! Jentayu UP UP! :P Hahaha! :P I feel so happy for her. Therefore, I feel so disappointed of myself. And I don't know how to face my seniors and teachers.... It's like, I failed to fulfill their request and expectations. I feel very very very sad. :'( I feel I am so stupid. D: You know what's the reason I will lose? I KEEP THINKING TOO MUCH! And you know what's the worst part? I actually keep thinking that I will fail to make the javelin poke the ground. How pathetic. I'm destroying myself with negative thoughts. The bad part is, it comes true. Instead of thinking something good, I go to think of something bad. :'( Such a failure. WHY WHY WHY?! WHY THIS KOLAVERI DI!!
During the game, I'm thinking of what position I should make, how to move, this and that. I'm not enjoying the game at all, like that first time I play the javelin. D: I'm in love with it. But this result really makes me feel disappointed TO THE MAX! Especially when other people asked me, "Erin you got win?" "Why? You trained so hard." I don't know what should I reply to them, this shows how 'fail' I am. </3 I don't dare to face all of you all, especially members of Jentayu. D:
Sometimes, competitions and exams, also need some luck. Maybe for this time, I don't have any luck. God didn't bless me for this. Maybe, God wants me to train even harder and stronger for it. Let me to be stronger. I will train more hard for javelin in the future for next year's saringan if the teacher still gives me a chance. :) I hope the teacher will give me another chance, I will be very very thankful for it. ♥ And I will fight hard. Please?
After the competition, we have our studies as normal, well, I can say it's a fun one, EXCEPT FOR CHINESE. >:( I don't know why I'm starting to hate Chinese. Maybe, I got no friends inside, and also the teaching is quite boring for me, not the same teaching method during the primary anymore. I do understand why. Now, for our secondary school, one week we just have 3 periods of Chinese lesson, if I'm still in primary (SJKC) I got like more than 6 periods a week, that's why we can do more exercises and learn more stuffs. ;) Totally different than now.
School ends now, and it still haven't over yet! I still got another acara at 4:30p.m... That means I need to stay back. But, it's impossible to call me to stay at school, doing nothing and wait until 4:30p.m! And I also need to go to 7-eleven to buy Molpoints. So I will also have my lunch at mamak there. ;) It's been so long I never go there for lunch! ♥ I went there with who? Guess! :D Hanu? Cheah? Dhurgaa? Julia? NO NO NO! This time I went there alone. :) I also don't know where I find the courage and braveness inside of me, I actually dare to walk to somewhere that I'm not really familiar with, ALONE. :3 It's an adventure. :3 Haha!
Bought the things I want at 7-eleven, and then before I went to mamak and I saw Dhiya and Satren at the bookshop there. So I went to say 'Hi' with them. :3 And then I get RM 1 belanja from Satren to buy roti canai. x) HAHA! Thank you so much Satren. ;) They went back to school and I went to mamak. ;)
Some of our schoolmates are having their lunch at there as well. ;) So, I can still see some familiar faces there. I won't be so scared.. Still, I'm alone, #foreveralone as they said, it's really quite scary also.. :'( I'm really afraid that time... Skip the scare scare part, I had roti planta and MY FAVORITE SIRAP BANDUNG AS MY LUNCH! ♥
YUMMYY! ♥
BANDUNG!!!! THE LOVE! ♥
Taken using my phone's camera. :D TEEHEE. Thank God I'm not that #ForeverAlone after that. ;) Shuying so kind come and have lunch with me at the mamak. ;) She chatted a lot of her unforgettable trip yesterday. It was awesome though. :D I wish I could join too, but it's impossible for me. :X Don't ever dream of it. :3
After lunch, Shuying recommended me to a Ais Kacang stall. :D YAY! Dessert after meal. :D I love it. :3 Teehee. :D I ordered a cendol while Shuying ordered a longan drink. :D
Cendol with my favorite RED BEANS!!! ♥
It tastes delicious! :DD OHHHMEEEGOSHHH! ♥ I WANT MORE! The ice is quite smooth and the sugar is sweet enough and nice, the cendol is nice the red bean is nice, everything it's nice! And it's quite big in size, and it just costs RM2.50 if you eat there. SO SO SO SO CHEAP! ♥ I will go there more often then. x)
Tell you what, I love my school more now. :DD Got so many nice foods to eat OMG. x) I LOVE IT! So many facilities and restaurant, soon, some more will be a Chatime opening beside the Oldtown White Coffee Menjalara there! :DD It's so near to my school , I think it only takes 15-20 minutes, or maybe less then, you can reach there already! :DD I will stay back at school everyday for Chatime once it's open. x) HAHA!
MY SCHOOL IS LIKE A HEAVEN PLACE. ♥
Ate so many cold things before the acara some more. -_____- I love foods, and I can't resist. :3 I can't stand the temptations. :3 IT'S SO SO SO NICE. :P HAHA! After the dessert, we went back to school. There's competition going on, run run run, jump jump jump and also throw throw throw. :3 Haha. x) The running is the most exciting one! Everyone will be cheering for their own rumah sukan! :D Me? OF COURSE IS JENTAYU AND MY FELLOW FRIENDS! Who take part in the competition. :3 And how shocking when I saw my classmates can actually run very very very fast, like Shiao Dong and Sharwin. OMG. SO SO SO FAST LIKE LIGHTING. Some more not short distance, is long distance. They run 3 rounds of our school's field. :O They got the stamina, OMG. >___< Pro!
Sitting next to my beloved moral teacher, Miss Hong during the competitions. :D It was so fun chatting with her and also with other friends. :D What I can say is the whole picture is nice, words can't describe it but when you feel it, you can feel that there's pure happiness of cheering for your friends. The whole situation is very lively. :D And the ones who are competing are so so serious, they're pro(s). Respect! Salute!
After awhile, I heard the teachers starting to call our names and acara, gotta go for it. But Hanu is not here! D: So so so panic that time. >____< Even when the game starts already, she never come. She said to me before, if she never come means, never come. So, we go on without her. ;) Comparing to lembing, this is much more easier. Just the ball is quite heavy. :3 And the teacher in charge is funny as well! :D He will make jokes. :3 So it makes us more relax during the competition. :D Of course, at the end, I didn't win, because I got not enough energy to throw, I still don't know how to control my energy and some more the teacher is laughing me about my style of throwing! >____< Don't know what's so funny about it. >___< Well, my furthest throw also just 4.28meters. While the first, second and third are 5 meters ++.. I never expect anything on this acara so I don't feel so sad. :D It's fun to play! Hope next time, I'm prepared and I can still go for it. ;)
My acara was over, so that means I can go home already. :3 But still, I went to the Ais Kacang stall again to take away for my mother. I want my mother to try. :3 And also I bought some goreng stuffs for her. :D Teehee, she likes this kind of stuffs. :3
After I take away the foods, it's like almost 5:00p.m++.. And I need to wait for my transport auntie to come and fetch me at 5:30p.m++. Waited alone outside the school compound. Singing to reduce my loneliness, I'm afraid of it. Since now I sing alone NOBODY will call me to "shh..." also. :3
My auntie came at 5:30p.m, so I went home, relax and online. :3 Teehee. :D Looking forward to our Sports' day this Friday! :D It sure will be a busy week. :D
Okayy, it's a super duper long post. :O Sorry for writing so many craps but if you finished it all, I thank you very much, and here's a cookie for you. :3 HAHA!
It's time for me to sleep, it's already 12a.m something, mum's gotta scold. And there's another day I won't get enough of sleep. :3
Chaos and goodnight. ;) ♥
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