Dear Bloggie,
Sorry for lefted you quite awhile here.
Are you lonely? :/
Well, not in the mood of writing my blog those days.
I'm busy.
Nothing special happened also.
Hmm..
But, during these days, don't know why I keep on crying.
I think I am stressed again.
Cried at home.
Got scolding from my mother of crying.
Home is not a good place for me to cry.
That's why I always hold my tears and cry at school.
I had no choice.
If I don't cry out, I can't find another way to express it.
And if I cry at school, I hope I can get more support and accompany from my friends.
But, they can't always just stay at my side, they also have their things to do.
That time, I realized, I really need to do something.
Few days ago, a friend of mine find me and talk some about my problems.
Well, that time I need a person to talk with, so I choose to believe.
Say honestly, he really helped me a lot.
But that time, I haven't understand and think of the whole thing completely.
The day after it, I totally understand and get the meaning.
My mind is open.
People changed, we can't do them also.
That means we must let them go.
If still holding a person that doesn't belong to you tightly, you will just struggle yourself from pain.
It's hard to forget someone that once you love the most, but can still keep the good memories.
Life still goes on, no matter how worst or good.
We can't change the past, because it's already become past tense.
But, we can change our future, with our will. :)
It depends on us.
The most important thing, must believe in yourself.
Don't lost confidence.
Be happy is not 'trying to', is 'must to'. :)
Thank you, someone. :)
If you didn't come and say all these to me, maybe I still need a long time to recover myself.
Thanks for all the words, the meaningful words.
Hmm..
Another thing that happened today.
Well, the position of my class came out already.
If didn't mistaken, the paper wrote that I got 35th in my class.
What a result.
What aim that I aiming again?
Okayy, wait a second.
Ohh yea, I remembered.
It's within 10.
Now? What I got?
:'(
From 11th to 35th.
Say honestly, the WORST POSITION I EVER HAD for my ENTIRE LIFE.
I dropped 24 position.
According to the new position ranking system, once you failed a subject, your position will be at behind already.
Well, I am the FIRST person on the 'Failed' list.
My total marks are 531.
But some other classmates of mine, the total marks are lower than mine, but their position are on the 'Passed' list.
Well, means in front of 35th.
35th behind, means all the 7 people also got subject that failed.
The time that I know I get 35 in my class, I straight cry.
I can't stand it.
I know cry can't change anything, but I still can't control myself.
My heart just tell me, cry it out loud.
After a great cry, it feels more comfortable though.
I cried for 3 periods.
During the Chinese lesson, my best friends can't stay in the class because they didn't take Chinese.
So, no choice, they need to leave.
Left one of my best friend, GF.
Actually, he's so good.
He tried to comfort me and accompany me.
Seriously, when I cry, I realized all of my classmates were scared of me.
No one dare to come and comfort me or accompany me.
Maybe I'm not that close with them also.
But, honestly, when I cry, what I need the most is someone's accompany and comforting.
But, it takes time.
Not many people do really care, honestly saying.
Nevermind, I already get used to it.
So, I don't care of them, I just cry.
Nobody will understand what I am thinking.
I didn't blame anyone.
That's true, no one can understand a person's heart and mind completely.
What I want to say is, a people who always laugh and smile the most, is the ones who their hearts are crying all the times.
So, everyone have their limitations.
Like me, I can't stand it anymore, so I cried.
I bet nobody likes to cry, including me.
I prefer laughter more.
But, there's always sad times.
We're not made from metal or steel.
We will still cry.
Cry is not a thing that embarrasses, is just a way to express yourself.
Even the strongest person in the world also will cry.
So, please don't think that cry is a crime.
But, that's doesn't mean to call you cry more.
Just, when you feel sad, please don't hide your emotions.
Express it out to make you feel more better.
Share it out to your friends also.
Or write it out on a diary.
:)
After my Chinese teacher finished her teaching, she still got time.
She come and comfort me and also give me motivation.
She told me not to lose hope but study hard for the final exam.
"you can be the best, if you work hard."
:)
I will teacher, I will.
Now, I want to promise myself, I will study more hard for the finals.
I won't let myself down.
And I won't FAILED a subject again.
My aim of position is still within 10.
I know I can.
:D
And also, I want to promise my friends, especially Dhurgaa, Hanu and GF,
I will try not to cry at the class and then I will share all my feelings with you all.
Deal? :D
I love you three. ♥
I learned from my lesson, I won't let the same mistake repeat again.
I woke up from all the bad dreams.
And I believe, I will feel the warm sunshine. :)
Once again, I want to thanks all my friends who support, comfort and be with me all the times.
I can't live without you all, friends are important.
you all are the puzzle pieces that can't be missing.
One piece missing and it's not complete.
:)
Teehee.
Ohh yeaa, holiday arrives.
One week holiday, got plans for it? ;)
Have a blast one! :D
For me, I will back to my mother's hometown for holiday. :)
Haha, I can't wait to have fun there. ♥
Must enjoy and relax ya everyone. :)
Teehee!
For my friends, happy holiday and also SELAMAT HARI RAyA! :D
Leave some 'kuih raya' for me ya. :P
Haha!
Okayy, that's all for today.
Take care.
Chaos.
Friday, August 26, 2011
Wednesday, August 17, 2011
17/8, The worst wake up call.
Dear Bloggie,
Come for my bloggie again. :)
Well, saw the post title right?
'The worst wake up call.'
Yeaa, the WORST wake up call EVER.
D:
After exam, the teachers sure will give back the papers.
This time, MY RESULTS TERRIBLY DROPPED.
Even I also got shocked.
WHY MY RESULTS SO TERRIBLY BAD?
I am speechless.
Because of that issue, and my STRESS.
No thanks to you, cause I didn't appreciate what BOTH OF YOU did to me.
>:(
Want to know my results?
Let's compare my mid year exam results with the results now.
Mid Year Exam.
But now, for my exam results this time.
Results for now.
Don't have a 'B' in the list also.
Some more, maybe still got a subject that FAILED.
First FAILED in my life.
MY ENTIRE LIFE.
That time when my friends mark my Sejarah paper for me, they were like, "Erin? What happened to you? You just correct 14/40. "
Don't ask me why, I don't know also.
It makes me think back of my stress, and also that thing.
I cried at class.
Loudly.
Actually, I already my expected my Sejarah result will fail, but don't know why, my tears still falling down.
That time, I don't care anything else.
I just want to cry out loud to express out all my stress.
I feel like, I am so stupid and useless.
My friends' results all are better than mine.
They're improving while I am dropping.
Now my situation is like, a people who is walking smoothly, suddenly accidentally kicked a BIG stone and fell down.
But yet, that people is still crying for the pain, and keep looking at the wound that already caused.
Still don't want to stand up and walk slowly to wash the wound and put on some medicine to make it feel more better.
Well, the things happened and I still haven't accept it, still hope that all is just a fake.
Keep on crying, and thinking about the things that happened, and already become the past.
Still don't want to stand up, and walk towards the better future.
What's wrong with me?
Still sitting at there, doing nothing to cure the wound?
Just let it spread the bacteria?
And get more worst?
ERIN, STOP ALL THESE.
You should think wisely.
You're spoiling yourself.
All of these are not suppose to be happening?!
Because of you!
That still don't want to forget the past,
that still don't want to be more stronger.
Seriously, nobody can help you, only yourself.
Please, stand up.
Go wash off all the bad things.
Everyone makes mistakes.
But we must learn from the mistakes, and don't REPEAT it.
So, nevermind.
Everyone must go through different struggles that God give.
So, nevermind.
Everyone grow up through different ways.
And this is the way to let me realize the reality world and don't be so naive.
Nothing's real, nothing lasts.
Fairy tales are wonderful, but reality are not.
Live in the real world, Erin.
Real world are cruel, but you still can make it beautiful.
Don't be hopeless, there's miracles. :)
Well, this is a lesson that I learn from it.
I can't continue like this any more.
I don't want night mares, bad dreams.
I want a sweet dream. :)
Come one Erin, the rain is almost over, it will comes a rainbow and also SUNSHINE! :DD
The moment you lost all the things you had, is also the moment all the good things will come to you. :)
Keep on moving! :)
Wish me luck.
Crying is not a solution of problems, but it can still let you feel more better. :)
Smile is still the best of all. :)
Don't cry because it ended, smile because it happened.
Because it let you know, you deserve a more better one.
Say goodbye to all the problems, and say hello to all the happiness.
I believe, I could make the best of it.
Love can make you raise, but it also makes you fall.
After the fall, stand up, walk proudly.
Because you can defeat the devil that keep disturbing your heart and mind. ;)
Wipe off the tears girl, you're more stronger now.
Come for my bloggie again. :)
Well, saw the post title right?
'The worst wake up call.'
Yeaa, the WORST wake up call EVER.
D:
After exam, the teachers sure will give back the papers.
This time, MY RESULTS TERRIBLY DROPPED.
Even I also got shocked.
WHY MY RESULTS SO TERRIBLY BAD?
I am speechless.
Because of that issue, and my STRESS.
No thanks to you, cause I didn't appreciate what BOTH OF YOU did to me.
>:(
Want to know my results?
Let's compare my mid year exam results with the results now.
Mid Year Exam.
- Bahasa Malaysia - 82% (A)
- English - 81% (A)
- Chinese - 83% (A)
- Kemahiran Hidup - 83% (A)
- Mathematics - 62% (C)
- Science - 71% (B)
- Geography - 55% (C)
- Sejarah - 65% (B)
But now, for my exam results this time.
Results for now.
- Bahasa Malaysia - 78% (A)
- English - 83% (A)
- Chinese - 86% (A)
- Kemahiran Hidup - 84% (A)
- Mathematics - 56% (C)
- Science - 56% (C)
- Geography - 54% (D)
- Sejarah - 30% (E) FAILED. < I think so, haven't give back the paper.
Don't have a 'B' in the list also.
Some more, maybe still got a subject that FAILED.
First FAILED in my life.
MY ENTIRE LIFE.
That time when my friends mark my Sejarah paper for me, they were like, "Erin? What happened to you? You just correct 14/40. "
Don't ask me why, I don't know also.
It makes me think back of my stress, and also that thing.
I cried at class.
Loudly.
Actually, I already my expected my Sejarah result will fail, but don't know why, my tears still falling down.
That time, I don't care anything else.
I just want to cry out loud to express out all my stress.
I feel like, I am so stupid and useless.
My friends' results all are better than mine.
They're improving while I am dropping.
Now my situation is like, a people who is walking smoothly, suddenly accidentally kicked a BIG stone and fell down.
But yet, that people is still crying for the pain, and keep looking at the wound that already caused.
Still don't want to stand up and walk slowly to wash the wound and put on some medicine to make it feel more better.
Well, the things happened and I still haven't accept it, still hope that all is just a fake.
Keep on crying, and thinking about the things that happened, and already become the past.
Still don't want to stand up, and walk towards the better future.
What's wrong with me?
Still sitting at there, doing nothing to cure the wound?
Just let it spread the bacteria?
And get more worst?
ERIN, STOP ALL THESE.
You should think wisely.
You're spoiling yourself.
All of these are not suppose to be happening?!
Because of you!
That still don't want to forget the past,
that still don't want to be more stronger.
Seriously, nobody can help you, only yourself.
Please, stand up.
Go wash off all the bad things.
Everyone makes mistakes.
But we must learn from the mistakes, and don't REPEAT it.
So, nevermind.
Everyone must go through different struggles that God give.
So, nevermind.
Everyone grow up through different ways.
And this is the way to let me realize the reality world and don't be so naive.
Nothing's real, nothing lasts.
Fairy tales are wonderful, but reality are not.
Live in the real world, Erin.
Real world are cruel, but you still can make it beautiful.
Don't be hopeless, there's miracles. :)
Well, this is a lesson that I learn from it.
I can't continue like this any more.
I don't want night mares, bad dreams.
I want a sweet dream. :)
Come one Erin, the rain is almost over, it will comes a rainbow and also SUNSHINE! :DD
The moment you lost all the things you had, is also the moment all the good things will come to you. :)
Keep on moving! :)
Wish me luck.
Crying is not a solution of problems, but it can still let you feel more better. :)
Smile is still the best of all. :)
Don't cry because it ended, smile because it happened.
Because it let you know, you deserve a more better one.
Say goodbye to all the problems, and say hello to all the happiness.
I believe, I could make the best of it.
Love can make you raise, but it also makes you fall.
After the fall, stand up, walk proudly.
Because you can defeat the devil that keep disturbing your heart and mind. ;)
Wipe off the tears girl, you're more stronger now.
Thursday, August 11, 2011
11/8, Some time for myself.
Dear Bloggie,
Ohh yeah! :D
Once again I'm here again!
TeeHee. :)
Just free from my exams.
How was my exam huh?
Hmm..
I can say, just okay okayy.
Some subjects were hard, and some subjects were easy.
I introduce my 'enemy' before right?
MATHEMATICS.
All that I can say is, IT WAS SO HARD.
Know my situation right?
I'm not very interested to Maths, I had no choice but trying to like it.
For my maths, due to the lack of time, some of the subjective questions I just leave it blank.
Ohh yea, and also, I don't know how to do.
>:(
Many of my marks already gone.
My heart, is breaking. </3
But please, at least a 'D'. :(
I will be very thankful if I didn't FAILED my Mathematics.
Okayy, the second subject, Science.
Yeaa, Science is one of my favourite subject, but for this time...
Ohh no.... :(
Just 20 questions for objective, and like 7 questions for subjective.
And the subjective stand 60 marks for the paper.
Yeaa, the paper is quite easy, but unfortunately, for sudden, I can't remember the things I had studied.
So, some I just simply give a good guess.
(But I know it's not.)
And also, for some, I know the answers, but I forgotten all the spellings.
The scientific names are just, too long and complicated.
If I failed my Science, OMG.
I still say I want to become a doctor some more.
>____<
Please, also, at least a 'D' for Science.
Last, for the History (Sejarah).
OMG.
I woke up at 5 a.m. today to study my Sejarah.
But, unlucky, I can't absorb the things that I studied.
Just like a reflection.
I studied, it reflects all the things in another direction.
:(
Some more still got the subjective questions, AGAIN.
I just simply write, just don't want to leave it blank.
During my Sejarah exam, it was also my Sejarah teacher's period, so she keep walking around of us and see our papers.
I don't want her to see my paper because I will feel embarrassed.
So I lay on my Sejarah paper.
But, when she passing by me, she just take my paper out.
I was like, OMG.
I just look at the table, cover my face, and started laughing.
I bet the teacher also can't stand with the answers that I wrote, so, she knocked my head.
>______<
Well, I really didn't meant it, I just...
*sighs*
Now, I will just pray to God, hope that my Sejarah won't fail.
(Although I think I will.)
Recently I lost confidence in myself.
I didn't focus much on my exam this time.
I don't know why.
Really feel so STRESSED.
The motivation that I used to have last time, ít disappeared.
:(
Telling the truth, I'm so lost.
Who can help me out? I want to walk out from this miserable maze.
I need a guidance.
I haven't be strong enough to do it alone.
Please, I don't wish to live in a life like this.
I know, other people just can give me advice, I am the one that must confront with all my feelings, and let myself out of it.
These days, during study time, headache will come.
It automaticly came, makes me feel so suffering.
That's the one of the reasons that I don't feel like study or doing anything.
I think I give myself too much of stress.
I'm stressing myself.
I want to acheive the aim that I aiming.
But, the results came out oppositely.
I push myself too hard.
:(
It's just make the thing more worst.
Motivation, is motivation that give me power to study.
Now, it's already gone.
For the last two exams, actually I did a good job, I'm satisfied with it.
First exam, I got 15th for my class position.
The mid year exam, I got 11th for it.
I'm improving, although it's still haven't reach the goal (within 10) that I wanted so badly, but still, I see the results.
But now, I know that, I will drop.
Because of some issues, makes me become like that.
Lucky this time's exam is not quite important.
Nevermind, take my time easily.
Now, be back yourself, don't skip class, listen to the teacher, pay full attention, copy all the notes that the teacher give and do all my home works.
Be a discipline student, July already past.
Okayy, I don't blame myself to be lost for that time, but now, I must walk out of it.
I must be free.
I must be set free from my mind and heart.
I'm free.
Don't think of the past, look foward to the future.
Still got a lot of fun things are waiting for me.
And also the friends that I haven't met. :)
Don't give up myself easily.
Keep going on, you won't know what's happening if you didn't go for it.
Now, exam's over, don't need to think about the results first, and give myself some time for relaxing.
My heart and my mind, I've burden both of you for so long, is the time for some rest.
Don't need to think about anything, just do some things that will let myself feel happy and enjoying.
Haha! :)
Ohh yea, because of this stress thingy, I think I gained weight also. :(
I lost my appetite, I didn't eat as much as I eat before, but still I think I gained some weight.
:(
I hate to be stress, stress has no advantage and just bring us the pain.
This is one of my 'hurtful' pain.
Please, my stress has to say 'Goodbye' with me.
I don't want to gain weight ANYMORE.
I'm fat enough.
T_____T
Stress, pimples too.
Keep on popping out.
ARGH. >:(
Pimples, I know you're stressed too, but can you find somewhere else to pop out instead of my face?
:(
For so long time I didn't get so many of the pimples!
*screaming*
A big one on my left side face.
So, the conclusion is, STRESS didn't bring us ANY BENEFITS.
Don't be sad, just like me.
Be happy always.
:)
Well, I did write a lot today, didn't I?
After I wrote all these out, I feel relief again.
That's why I need my bloggie so much.
Bloggie, ILY. ♥
You're always be there for me.
TeeHee!
Okayy, gotta go now.
I'm so tired after this long day.
Chaos.
Ohh yeah! :D
Once again I'm here again!
TeeHee. :)
Just free from my exams.
How was my exam huh?
Hmm..
I can say, just okay okayy.
Some subjects were hard, and some subjects were easy.
I introduce my 'enemy' before right?
MATHEMATICS.
All that I can say is, IT WAS SO HARD.
Know my situation right?
I'm not very interested to Maths, I had no choice but trying to like it.
For my maths, due to the lack of time, some of the subjective questions I just leave it blank.
Ohh yea, and also, I don't know how to do.
>:(
Many of my marks already gone.
My heart, is breaking. </3
But please, at least a 'D'. :(
I will be very thankful if I didn't FAILED my Mathematics.
Okayy, the second subject, Science.
Yeaa, Science is one of my favourite subject, but for this time...
Ohh no.... :(
Just 20 questions for objective, and like 7 questions for subjective.
And the subjective stand 60 marks for the paper.
Yeaa, the paper is quite easy, but unfortunately, for sudden, I can't remember the things I had studied.
So, some I just simply give a good guess.
(But I know it's not.)
And also, for some, I know the answers, but I forgotten all the spellings.
The scientific names are just, too long and complicated.
If I failed my Science, OMG.
I still say I want to become a doctor some more.
>____<
Please, also, at least a 'D' for Science.
Last, for the History (Sejarah).
OMG.
I woke up at 5 a.m. today to study my Sejarah.
But, unlucky, I can't absorb the things that I studied.
Just like a reflection.
I studied, it reflects all the things in another direction.
:(
Some more still got the subjective questions, AGAIN.
I just simply write, just don't want to leave it blank.
During my Sejarah exam, it was also my Sejarah teacher's period, so she keep walking around of us and see our papers.
I don't want her to see my paper because I will feel embarrassed.
So I lay on my Sejarah paper.
But, when she passing by me, she just take my paper out.
I was like, OMG.
I just look at the table, cover my face, and started laughing.
I bet the teacher also can't stand with the answers that I wrote, so, she knocked my head.
>______<
Well, I really didn't meant it, I just...
*sighs*
Now, I will just pray to God, hope that my Sejarah won't fail.
(Although I think I will.)
Recently I lost confidence in myself.
I didn't focus much on my exam this time.
I don't know why.
Really feel so STRESSED.
The motivation that I used to have last time, ít disappeared.
:(
Telling the truth, I'm so lost.
Who can help me out? I want to walk out from this miserable maze.
I need a guidance.
I haven't be strong enough to do it alone.
Please, I don't wish to live in a life like this.
I know, other people just can give me advice, I am the one that must confront with all my feelings, and let myself out of it.
These days, during study time, headache will come.
It automaticly came, makes me feel so suffering.
That's the one of the reasons that I don't feel like study or doing anything.
I think I give myself too much of stress.
I'm stressing myself.
I want to acheive the aim that I aiming.
But, the results came out oppositely.
I push myself too hard.
:(
It's just make the thing more worst.
Motivation, is motivation that give me power to study.
Now, it's already gone.
For the last two exams, actually I did a good job, I'm satisfied with it.
First exam, I got 15th for my class position.
The mid year exam, I got 11th for it.
I'm improving, although it's still haven't reach the goal (within 10) that I wanted so badly, but still, I see the results.
But now, I know that, I will drop.
Because of some issues, makes me become like that.
Lucky this time's exam is not quite important.
Nevermind, take my time easily.
Now, be back yourself, don't skip class, listen to the teacher, pay full attention, copy all the notes that the teacher give and do all my home works.
Be a discipline student, July already past.
Okayy, I don't blame myself to be lost for that time, but now, I must walk out of it.
I must be free.
I must be set free from my mind and heart.
I'm free.
Don't think of the past, look foward to the future.
Still got a lot of fun things are waiting for me.
And also the friends that I haven't met. :)
Don't give up myself easily.
Keep going on, you won't know what's happening if you didn't go for it.
Now, exam's over, don't need to think about the results first, and give myself some time for relaxing.
My heart and my mind, I've burden both of you for so long, is the time for some rest.
Don't need to think about anything, just do some things that will let myself feel happy and enjoying.
Haha! :)
Ohh yea, because of this stress thingy, I think I gained weight also. :(
I lost my appetite, I didn't eat as much as I eat before, but still I think I gained some weight.
:(
I hate to be stress, stress has no advantage and just bring us the pain.
This is one of my 'hurtful' pain.
Please, my stress has to say 'Goodbye' with me.
I don't want to gain weight ANYMORE.
I'm fat enough.
T_____T
Stress, pimples too.
Keep on popping out.
ARGH. >:(
Pimples, I know you're stressed too, but can you find somewhere else to pop out instead of my face?
:(
For so long time I didn't get so many of the pimples!
*screaming*
A big one on my left side face.
So, the conclusion is, STRESS didn't bring us ANY BENEFITS.
Don't be sad, just like me.
Be happy always.
:)
Well, I did write a lot today, didn't I?
After I wrote all these out, I feel relief again.
That's why I need my bloggie so much.
Bloggie, ILY. ♥
You're always be there for me.
TeeHee!
Okayy, gotta go now.
I'm so tired after this long day.
Chaos.
Sunday, August 7, 2011
7/8, I'm back.
Dear Bloggie,
Hii ya all, do you all miss me? :)
A long time I didn't come for update.
Sorry ya my bloggie, I neglected you.
Not that I don't want to update my blog, is just I don't have the mood to update.
Why? It's a long story.
In the month of July, that I didn't even blog for a word, yeaa, many things happened.
What kind of things?
Mostly all sad and depressed.
The things that I don't wish to happen, happened.
It's my destiny though.
How about start my story now?
Alright.
The thing that I thought it wouldn't happen, breakup.
Yeaa, I been through a breakup now.
First experience of breakup in my life.
IT HURTS A LOT.
Because of this, many things of my life had been interrupted.
I don't wish to say more about this, it just make me feel myself more stupid.
After breakup, I don't know how to confront him.
Same class some more.
But now, a month already, my emotions are more stable for now.
During the breakup month, I don't know what to do.
I am so depressed.
I can missed all my lessons, not doing my homeworks, laugh crazily with my buddies and also cry loudly at the night.
Seriously, that's just so not me.
Before this, Erin will not want to missed all the lessons, she will attend to school even though she was sick, but for that month, she was finding for excuses just to be absent.
Before this, Erin will do finish all her homeworks before playing computer or anything, now, she can just leave her homeworks behind, and don't care about it.
Before this, Erin will not be so crazy with her friends. Now, she's different. She just want to laugh out hard to cover all her true feelings, that means, PRETEND.
My miserable month of July.
I'm trying to find my path out of this.
I can't stay at this kind of situation forever, life still goes on.
I can tell myself that, I CAN LIVE WITHOUT HIM.
So, I must take back my words,I can't live without you. Sorry to say that, I CAN.
Now I must believe and trust in myself.
I want to do back the Erin before.
He can still be HAPPY without me, WHY I CAN'T?
Why I must be the one who sad for so long time, while he doesn't even sad for ONCE?
Why I must waste all my tears, energy and also my heart to a person who doesn't even APPRECIATE it?
Erin, he's not worth it for you to do so many things.
Maybe we're just destined to just meet each other, be together for a season, not till the end.
I believe that the God won't be so cruel to hurt me without a reason.
God will arranged everything well.
This is for me to wake up, a hurtful wake up call.
But now, I'm just half awake.
I hope I can wake up sooner.
'Heartbreak' really needs time.
Time forgets.
It's not hard to forget someone you loved. It is hard to forget the love you felt for someone.
That's true.
The scars you can't see is the hardest to be healed.
Well, Erin, don't keep stay at the past.
You will not have a better tomorrow if you keep stay at the past.
So move on.
You still got plenty of time.
If this guy don't appreciate you, some others will.
Out there, maybe will got a guy happy that he leave.
(Self-comforting)
Is his loss that he didn't grab this chance.
The God will let you meet a better one.
So, ERIN, accept the fact that he's gone, he's not yours anymore.
At last, a girl doesn't need anyone who doesn't need her.
Be happy that he came into your life, and be happy to send him away.
Because he's the one who let you realized what you should really deserve.
Once again, thank YOU for loving me before and thank YOU for walking out my life.
That's the decision you made, fine, I will wish you all the best.
Don’t be afraid of letting go. You may lose something good, but you might gain something even better.
There is a good in goodbye for a reason, some people are just not meant to remain in your life and you will have to let them go.
Don't cry for a guy, let a guy cry for you. Cause girls give and forgive, but guys get and forget.
I'm letting you go now, my heart is free now.
Goodbye, and we'll never meet again.
Farewell, my first love.
After expressed all my feelings out here, I am more comfortable and sure about my decisions.
But still, I need time.
:)Erin, aza-aza fighting! ♥
I know you can.
"I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me, leave the past behind me, today my life begins." - Bruno Mars 'Today my life begins'.
A nice song that suites my situation now.
I just need to put the past behind me, it's already over. And I must leave in the presence to make it more wonderful and looking forward to my future.
Sorry, I'm now lack of time, gotta go for my beauty sleep now.
Must study MATHS for my examination tomorrow, wish me luck.
I believe after tonight's great cry, I will be more better.
Live without regrets, life is too short to waste a single second with anyone who doesn't value you. :)
After a hurricane, will comes a rainbow.
Chaos.
Hii ya all, do you all miss me? :)
A long time I didn't come for update.
Sorry ya my bloggie, I neglected you.
Not that I don't want to update my blog, is just I don't have the mood to update.
Why? It's a long story.
In the month of July, that I didn't even blog for a word, yeaa, many things happened.
What kind of things?
Mostly all sad and depressed.
The things that I don't wish to happen, happened.
It's my destiny though.
How about start my story now?
Alright.
The thing that I thought it wouldn't happen, breakup.
Yeaa, I been through a breakup now.
First experience of breakup in my life.
IT HURTS A LOT.
Because of this, many things of my life had been interrupted.
I don't wish to say more about this, it just make me feel myself more stupid.
After breakup, I don't know how to confront him.
Same class some more.
But now, a month already, my emotions are more stable for now.
During the breakup month, I don't know what to do.
I am so depressed.
I can missed all my lessons, not doing my homeworks, laugh crazily with my buddies and also cry loudly at the night.
Seriously, that's just so not me.
Before this, Erin will not want to missed all the lessons, she will attend to school even though she was sick, but for that month, she was finding for excuses just to be absent.
Before this, Erin will do finish all her homeworks before playing computer or anything, now, she can just leave her homeworks behind, and don't care about it.
Before this, Erin will not be so crazy with her friends. Now, she's different. She just want to laugh out hard to cover all her true feelings, that means, PRETEND.
My miserable month of July.
I'm trying to find my path out of this.
I can't stay at this kind of situation forever, life still goes on.
I can tell myself that, I CAN LIVE WITHOUT HIM.
So, I must take back my words,
Now I must believe and trust in myself.
I want to do back the Erin before.
He can still be HAPPY without me, WHY I CAN'T?
Why I must be the one who sad for so long time, while he doesn't even sad for ONCE?
Why I must waste all my tears, energy and also my heart to a person who doesn't even APPRECIATE it?
Erin, he's not worth it for you to do so many things.
Maybe we're just destined to just meet each other, be together for a season, not till the end.
I believe that the God won't be so cruel to hurt me without a reason.
God will arranged everything well.
This is for me to wake up, a hurtful wake up call.
But now, I'm just half awake.
I hope I can wake up sooner.
'Heartbreak' really needs time.
Time forgets.
It's not hard to forget someone you loved. It is hard to forget the love you felt for someone.
That's true.
The scars you can't see is the hardest to be healed.
Well, Erin, don't keep stay at the past.
You will not have a better tomorrow if you keep stay at the past.
So move on.
You still got plenty of time.
If this guy don't appreciate you, some others will.
Out there, maybe will got a guy happy that he leave.
(Self-comforting)
Is his loss that he didn't grab this chance.
The God will let you meet a better one.
So, ERIN, accept the fact that he's gone, he's not yours anymore.
At last, a girl doesn't need anyone who doesn't need her.
Be happy that he came into your life, and be happy to send him away.
Because he's the one who let you realized what you should really deserve.
Once again, thank YOU for loving me before and thank YOU for walking out my life.
That's the decision you made, fine, I will wish you all the best.
Don’t be afraid of letting go. You may lose something good, but you might gain something even better.
There is a good in goodbye for a reason, some people are just not meant to remain in your life and you will have to let them go.
Don't cry for a guy, let a guy cry for you. Cause girls give and forgive, but guys get and forget.
I'm letting you go now, my heart is free now.
Goodbye, and we'll never meet again.
Farewell, my first love.
After expressed all my feelings out here, I am more comfortable and sure about my decisions.
But still, I need time.
:)Erin, aza-aza fighting! ♥
I know you can.
"I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me, leave the past behind me, today my life begins." - Bruno Mars 'Today my life begins'.
A nice song that suites my situation now.
I just need to put the past behind me, it's already over. And I must leave in the presence to make it more wonderful and looking forward to my future.
Sorry, I'm now lack of time, gotta go for my beauty sleep now.
Must study MATHS for my examination tomorrow, wish me luck.
I believe after tonight's great cry, I will be more better.
Live without regrets, life is too short to waste a single second with anyone who doesn't value you. :)
After a hurricane, will comes a rainbow.
Chaos.
Thursday, June 30, 2011
30/6, My wishlist. ♥
Dear Bloggie,
Well, time passes fast.
( I know I always say this. BTW, that's the truth.)
Now is already the end of June 2011.
Another goodbye to a month.
Gotta start a new me for next month! :D
Today, I want to share about my wishlist. ♥
Haha, there's a lot of things I want and also achieve it.
Okayy, start my topic!
First, I want a camera of my own.
Canon Ixus 210. ♥
Know something?
This is also a touch screen camera! :D
And, this modal got purple colour! ♥
Awww... it's so beautiful.
The price written at the Canon's website is RM 899.
Actually, the price is reasonable right?
>__________<
I don't know much of camera thingy.
I wanted to own a camera for so much. D:
It's because I like to take photos.
My interest too. :)
But always I just take pictures with my handphone.
Sometimes when you zoom it on handphone, the picture comes out not nice already.
Not clear enough also.
Well, actually my dream is to own a DSLR, but I think is kinda IMPOSSIBLE.
At least a digital camera please?
:(
Almost every family will have one of the digital camera, my house just got the camera that need to use the filim.
What I can say is, it's so outdated.
>______<
And it's not convenient to be taking out.
Hmm, still not sure which camera's function is really good.
Hope someone can give me some suggestion.
:D
Second thing I want is a BRAND NEW HANDPHONE.
My handphone spoiled. >:(
My PRECIOUS W705i SPOILED.
T___________T
The phone that I used my own money to buy already spoiled.
I really didn't expect it will be spoiled.
And also didn't expect it will be spoiled so EARLY.
For now, I don't have money to change a new phone for myself.
Because now I just started to save money for buying myself a new phone for this end of the year.
Why it must spoiled so early. D:
Now I just can receive phone calls, that's all.
Can't sms, can't take pictures, can't listen music, can't call out.
It become useless.
I want to change Sony Ericsson Xperia ARC. ♥
It's so slim!
And the function of the phone is so good!
I want it I want it! :P
But it's so expensive.
D:
RM1500++.
That time I ask a shop, the price of a SE Xperia ARC.
It's so expensive.
Expensive than my laptop.
>_______<
So hard to save so many money too.
Now, I hope my parents will buy me one.
I think it's impossible also.
*SIGHS*
What I also must depends on myself.
Hope I can buy a new phone ASAP.
Nowadays without handphone really very hard.
Can't live without technology.
Third, A VERY IMPORTANT THING IN MY SCHOOL LIFE.
Calculator.
ARGHH.
One of my classmate lost my calculator.
D:
I am quite angry of this actually.
He borrowed my thing without my permission.
And then he still forgot to return to me.
T___________T
The price of a calculator is not cheap also.
RM20++.
OMG.
And then for this issue, I can't let my mother know also.
Where I go to find money?
Calculator is really important to me.
I really needed it for my Maths. :(
Must buy this thing without letting my mother knows.
>:(
Let's skip this sad thing!
The fourth thing I want is a mascara. ♥
Maybelline mascara! :P
HeeHee.
I want to buy one! :P
Since I don't know how to put the fake eyelashes, so I go and buy a mascara instead.
Just apply on it, so easy!
Not like the fake eyelashes, still need to put on glue, stick on the real eyelashes, need to wait.
Say seriously, I am lazy to do all that things.
I am a girl, who loves being pretty but lazy.
Haha.
Got anything that's simple for girls to make up?
No need to waste time like an hour?
So tiring.
>______<
But everyone got their different ways.
Nevermind!
:DD
A Maybelline mascara is not cheap also.
I think maybe is over RM50?
All is about money.
T________T
The last thing I really need to buy is, a new school bag. :(
My school bag all spoiled also actually.
Including the one I using now.
It's hard to find a good one though.
Hope I can find one soon.
Because my one now I think it will not lasts more longer.
ARGHHH.
I think my wishlish is kinda hard to achieve it, I guess?
Except for the calculator and school bag, that's a URGENT case.
Hmmm...
I think I need to work to earn money.
Or else, like my mother always said, all the money also not enough for me to spend.
>_____<
I know my mistake, I know I should not overspending.
But, girls like shopping, right?
:P
That's the fact.
Haha.
Well, I want to add one SUPER IMPOSSIBLE WISH inside this LIST.
I want a car! :P
Awwwww... I like this Myvi so much. :P
First, it's purple.
Second, it's features are so nice.
But I think this car is limited edition?
:(
Haha.
Actually, this is not my age thing right?
I am just 14 years old, and I keep want a car.
Yes, I want to own a car when I am 18 years old.
I want freedom.
If like that, I don't need to bother my father to keep drive me in drive me out.
And, I can go anywhere I want!
But sometimes it seems impossible for me to own a car when 18 years old.
If I work on these year, 2011, 2012, 2013, 2014, 2015.
I think also not enough for me to pay the down payment.
Seriously, that's really my biggest wish.
I must start to save money now.
For me, for my future car!
Hoooray!
Aza-aza fighting! ♥
Believe that anything is possible.
TeeHee.
Well, cheer for the coming new month.
Everything will be alright.
Cheers!
Okayy, stop my list here.
Hope everyone will acheive their wish also. ♥
Chaos.
Well, time passes fast.
( I know I always say this. BTW, that's the truth.)
Now is already the end of June 2011.
Another goodbye to a month.
Gotta start a new me for next month! :D
Today, I want to share about my wishlist. ♥
Haha, there's a lot of things I want and also achieve it.
Okayy, start my topic!
First, I want a camera of my own.
Canon Ixus 210. ♥
Canon Ixus 210.
Know something?
This is also a touch screen camera! :D
And, this modal got purple colour! ♥
Awww... it's so beautiful.
The price written at the Canon's website is RM 899.
Actually, the price is reasonable right?
>__________<
I don't know much of camera thingy.
I wanted to own a camera for so much. D:
It's because I like to take photos.
My interest too. :)
But always I just take pictures with my handphone.
Sometimes when you zoom it on handphone, the picture comes out not nice already.
Not clear enough also.
Well, actually my dream is to own a DSLR, but I think is kinda IMPOSSIBLE.
At least a digital camera please?
:(
Almost every family will have one of the digital camera, my house just got the camera that need to use the filim.
What I can say is, it's so outdated.
>______<
And it's not convenient to be taking out.
Hmm, still not sure which camera's function is really good.
Hope someone can give me some suggestion.
:D
Second thing I want is a BRAND NEW HANDPHONE.
My handphone spoiled. >:(
My PRECIOUS W705i SPOILED.
T___________T
The phone that I used my own money to buy already spoiled.
I really didn't expect it will be spoiled.
And also didn't expect it will be spoiled so EARLY.
For now, I don't have money to change a new phone for myself.
Because now I just started to save money for buying myself a new phone for this end of the year.
Why it must spoiled so early. D:
Now I just can receive phone calls, that's all.
Can't sms, can't take pictures, can't listen music, can't call out.
It become useless.
I want to change Sony Ericsson Xperia ARC. ♥
Sony Ericsson Xperia ARC.
It's so slim!
And the function of the phone is so good!
I want it I want it! :P
But it's so expensive.
D:
RM1500++.
That time I ask a shop, the price of a SE Xperia ARC.
It's so expensive.
Expensive than my laptop.
>_______<
So hard to save so many money too.
Now, I hope my parents will buy me one.
I think it's impossible also.
*SIGHS*
What I also must depends on myself.
Hope I can buy a new phone ASAP.
Nowadays without handphone really very hard.
Can't live without technology.
Third, A VERY IMPORTANT THING IN MY SCHOOL LIFE.
Calculator.
Casio fs-350ms.
ARGHH.
One of my classmate lost my calculator.
D:
I am quite angry of this actually.
He borrowed my thing without my permission.
And then he still forgot to return to me.
T___________T
The price of a calculator is not cheap also.
RM20++.
OMG.
And then for this issue, I can't let my mother know also.
Where I go to find money?
Calculator is really important to me.
I really needed it for my Maths. :(
Must buy this thing without letting my mother knows.
>:(
Let's skip this sad thing!
The fourth thing I want is a mascara. ♥
Maybelline mascara! :P
Mascaras.
HeeHee.
I want to buy one! :P
Since I don't know how to put the fake eyelashes, so I go and buy a mascara instead.
Just apply on it, so easy!
Not like the fake eyelashes, still need to put on glue, stick on the real eyelashes, need to wait.
Say seriously, I am lazy to do all that things.
I am a girl, who loves being pretty but lazy.
Haha.
Got anything that's simple for girls to make up?
No need to waste time like an hour?
So tiring.
>______<
But everyone got their different ways.
Nevermind!
:DD
A Maybelline mascara is not cheap also.
I think maybe is over RM50?
All is about money.
T________T
The last thing I really need to buy is, a new school bag. :(
My school bag all spoiled also actually.
Including the one I using now.
It's hard to find a good one though.
Hope I can find one soon.
Because my one now I think it will not lasts more longer.
ARGHHH.
I think my wishlish is kinda hard to achieve it, I guess?
Except for the calculator and school bag, that's a URGENT case.
Hmmm...
I think I need to work to earn money.
Or else, like my mother always said, all the money also not enough for me to spend.
>_____<
I know my mistake, I know I should not overspending.
But, girls like shopping, right?
:P
That's the fact.
Haha.
Well, I want to add one SUPER IMPOSSIBLE WISH inside this LIST.
I want a car! :P
Myvi Elegance. ♥
Awwwww... I like this Myvi so much. :P
First, it's purple.
Second, it's features are so nice.
But I think this car is limited edition?
:(
Haha.
Actually, this is not my age thing right?
I am just 14 years old, and I keep want a car.
Yes, I want to own a car when I am 18 years old.
I want freedom.
If like that, I don't need to bother my father to keep drive me in drive me out.
And, I can go anywhere I want!
But sometimes it seems impossible for me to own a car when 18 years old.
If I work on these year, 2011, 2012, 2013, 2014, 2015.
I think also not enough for me to pay the down payment.
Seriously, that's really my biggest wish.
I must start to save money now.
For me, for my future car!
Hoooray!
Aza-aza fighting! ♥
Believe that anything is possible.
TeeHee.
Well, cheer for the coming new month.
Everything will be alright.
Cheers!
Okayy, stop my list here.
Hope everyone will acheive their wish also. ♥
Chaos.
Images source: Google Images.
Sunday, June 26, 2011
26/6, capital H.I.M. ♥
Dear Bloggie,
Hii ya!
Here am I like the rain, "come again again another day".
:P
Today, watch movie with him again. ♥
Movie of the day, "Green Lantern".
At Jusco's TGV cinemas again. :D
Well, since there's a traffic jam, I reached there at 2 p.m. ( The time that the movie starts.)
Rush to go and meet him.
And then we faster went up to the cinemas there.
Luckily when we went in to the cinema, the movie still haven't start yet, it was just the trailers.
Both of us were so exhausted, cause we ran up the stairs.
>______<
Rest for awhile, the movie started.
Well, it's scared me at the first.
Probably not just the first, all the exciting and scary scenes do scared me.
Haha.
This movie is about action and science fiction, quite interesting though.
Actually for other people, this movie is not scary at all.
For me, this coward, only.
>:(
I don't know why I still will scare of this kind of 'fake' things.
Hope someday I won't scare again. :)
The part that the movie ends, wow, I am EXTREMELY HAPPY.
Because no need to see all those scary and excited parts.
>______<
And those creepy music.
Yiks!
But, most of all the action movies also got this kind of 'effects' right?
Can't change it too.
After the movie, we went to find a place that we can sit down and do some revision.
( Both of us are so obedient. )
:P
All the restaurant and cafe were full of people since 4 p.m. ++ is consider as lunch plus tea break.
We had no choice but go to the Jusco's Food Arena to do our revision.
Hmmm, my biggest enemy, MATHEMATICS.
This time, he will help me to do revision of my Maths.
Chapter 7 - Geometrical Constructions.
Starting of using the compass.
For me is kinda hard.
I don't even understand what my teacher taught me at class.
So I just ignore.
And all the homeworks my teacher gave I didn't do also.
( OMG, PLEASE DON'T LEARN ME. IT'S A TOTALLY MISTAKE. )
So today my dear will teach me the chapter 7.
I'm so glad.
But I think when the time he teaches me he also will faint.
Because I not really understand when I need to draw here, when I need to draw there.
Haha.
And then, I don't know how to function a compass properly.
Seriously, this is the first time I holding the compass for so long time.
:P
And also I think I keep asking some stupid and annoying questions to him.
" Why it will be like that one?", " Why must draw at here one?".
Haha.
Keep why why why at there.
I really don't understand what.
>_____<
And it's hard to understand.
So the conclusion is, he taught me the chapter, I know some of the parts, but I still don't understand all.
Sorry ya, my dear.
I know I am a totally Maths failure.
I still will try hard for my Maths.
He gave me some 'homeworks' and also called me to do more revision on this.
Sure I will listen to him, except for the last one.
:P
After our 'Maths tuition' finished, go and find my mother, and he went back.
Well, another wonderful day ends here.
I want to say out loud at here, "THANKS DEAR!♥ "
Especially for the tuition.
ILY. ♥
TeeHee.
Hmm, gotta go now.
Chaos.
Hii ya!
Here am I like the rain, "come again again another day".
:P
Today, watch movie with him again. ♥
Movie of the day, "Green Lantern".
Green Lantern. ♥
At Jusco's TGV cinemas again. :D
Well, since there's a traffic jam, I reached there at 2 p.m. ( The time that the movie starts.)
Rush to go and meet him.
And then we faster went up to the cinemas there.
Luckily when we went in to the cinema, the movie still haven't start yet, it was just the trailers.
Both of us were so exhausted, cause we ran up the stairs.
>______<
Rest for awhile, the movie started.
Well, it's scared me at the first.
Probably not just the first, all the exciting and scary scenes do scared me.
Haha.
This movie is about action and science fiction, quite interesting though.
Actually for other people, this movie is not scary at all.
For me, this coward, only.
>:(
I don't know why I still will scare of this kind of 'fake' things.
Hope someday I won't scare again. :)
The part that the movie ends, wow, I am EXTREMELY HAPPY.
Because no need to see all those scary and excited parts.
>______<
And those creepy music.
Yiks!
But, most of all the action movies also got this kind of 'effects' right?
Can't change it too.
After the movie, we went to find a place that we can sit down and do some revision.
( Both of us are so obedient. )
:P
All the restaurant and cafe were full of people since 4 p.m. ++ is consider as lunch plus tea break.
We had no choice but go to the Jusco's Food Arena to do our revision.
Hmmm, my biggest enemy, MATHEMATICS.
This time, he will help me to do revision of my Maths.
Chapter 7 - Geometrical Constructions.
Starting of using the compass.
For me is kinda hard.
I don't even understand what my teacher taught me at class.
So I just ignore.
And all the homeworks my teacher gave I didn't do also.
( OMG, PLEASE DON'T LEARN ME. IT'S A TOTALLY MISTAKE. )
So today my dear will teach me the chapter 7.
I'm so glad.
But I think when the time he teaches me he also will faint.
Because I not really understand when I need to draw here, when I need to draw there.
Haha.
And then, I don't know how to function a compass properly.
Seriously, this is the first time I holding the compass for so long time.
:P
And also I think I keep asking some stupid and annoying questions to him.
" Why it will be like that one?", " Why must draw at here one?".
Haha.
Keep why why why at there.
I really don't understand what.
>_____<
And it's hard to understand.
So the conclusion is, he taught me the chapter, I know some of the parts, but I still don't understand all.
Sorry ya, my dear.
I know I am a totally Maths failure.
I still will try hard for my Maths.
He gave me some 'homeworks' and also called me to do more revision on this.
Sure I will listen to him, except for the last one.
:P
After our 'Maths tuition' finished, go and find my mother, and he went back.
Well, another wonderful day ends here.
I want to say out loud at here, "THANKS DEAR!♥ "
Especially for the tuition.
ILY. ♥
TeeHee.
Hmm, gotta go now.
Chaos.
How do I live without you. ♥
Saturday, June 25, 2011
25/6, Hello.
Dear Bloggie,
Hii ya all. :)
It's been another ong time I never come and update my blog.
Sorry, I am not in the mood of updating my blog, I don't know why. :/
Because everytime I want to update my blog sure got something will happened.
And then I feel nobody will like my blog since I don't have a nice attractive background, nice design, nice music and also my SUPERB LONG BLOG POST everytime.
D:
I know it was boring, because many of my posts was just texts and without pictures.
Well, I just want to express myself with texts.
And I don't know why I will type all this craps.
Just ignore it, and please come and support my blog often. :)
Thanks a lot! ♥
Almost 10 days I didn't come and write my blog.
Sorry my dear bloggie, I just lefted you. :(
I will try my best to come and update it.
Start my story from last Sunday ( 19/6).
Have a gathering with my primary friends today!
Very happy and excited.
At least one year I didn't seen them.
:D
Our primary school organized a 'Kepong Carnival' to raise fund for the school.
So there's our gathering place.
We had fun together that day.
We go and find the teachers, went back to our class room and went for a meal together.
The greatest moment with them.
Miss them a lot since all of us separated when secondary.
It was hard to take picture of that day, crowded with people, even just stop for awhile also will cause 'traffic jam' I think. :P
Haha.
But at least I did take one picture.
Well, that's all I have.
:)
Wanted to blog that night, but I was not in a mood.
What a loss.
Next day, Monday.
I am sick!
My mother says maybe I am under the sun for so many hours, I can't take it so I sick.
It was extremely SUFFERING.
Fever and also my whole body pains.
Can't even walk properly.
No appetite to eat also.
Went to the doctor, take medicine, keep on SLEEPING.
And because of this, 3 days I didn't go to school.
OMG, I am bored.
Nothing to do at home.
Surfing the net, play some Facebook games, Pet Society.
ARGHH, hate it when I can't go to school.
I missed class, lots of homeworks, I can't chat with my friends and also can't see him.
:(
Why I must sick?
And also I sick at a time I CAN'T BE SICK.
I really give trouble to a lot of people.
SORRY.
Hope you all will accept my apologize.
Especially to my N.I.E magazine group, Dhurgaa, Hanu, Iman and also Masz.
Our magazine successfully PASS UP to our teacher in charge.
Credits to HANU.
Millions of appreciate.
:D
Well, say 'Goodbye' to our magazine problems and thingy, finally we make it through.
:)
Back to school on Thursday.
Everyone seems to be happy when I was back.
I'm happy too! :D
Because I thought everybuddy forgotten me. :(
Actually that's my negative thought once opon a time is TRUE.
Thanks to all my friends!
You all are also the strength for me to attend school too.
Without you all, I am nothing.
Friends are wonderful.
TeeHee.
^__________^
Well, I got one new project to do.
The 'Sivik' project.
This project stands some of our final exam's marks.
That means this project is very IMPORTANT.
I must do this project SERIOUSLY.
I know I can.
And this project is in groups, not individually.
I joined my dear's group.
I think just 3 people.
My dear, RS and I.
Hope we will done a good job.
Aza-aza fighting!
I think I will stop my blog post here.
Not so long right? :)
Not feel like writing also, not in the mood again. :(
Don't know why, I am so strange.
Haha.
But I still will try my best to come update often.
Wish me luck.
Good luck to all of you too! :D
Okayy, Chaos.
Hii ya all. :)
It's been another ong time I never come and update my blog.
Sorry, I am not in the mood of updating my blog, I don't know why. :/
Because everytime I want to update my blog sure got something will happened.
And then I feel nobody will like my blog since I don't have a nice attractive background, nice design, nice music and also my SUPERB LONG BLOG POST everytime.
D:
I know it was boring, because many of my posts was just texts and without pictures.
Well, I just want to express myself with texts.
And I don't know why I will type all this craps.
Just ignore it, and please come and support my blog often. :)
Thanks a lot! ♥
Almost 10 days I didn't come and write my blog.
Sorry my dear bloggie, I just lefted you. :(
I will try my best to come and update it.
Start my story from last Sunday ( 19/6).
Have a gathering with my primary friends today!
Very happy and excited.
At least one year I didn't seen them.
:D
Our primary school organized a 'Kepong Carnival' to raise fund for the school.
So there's our gathering place.
We had fun together that day.
We go and find the teachers, went back to our class room and went for a meal together.
The greatest moment with them.
Miss them a lot since all of us separated when secondary.
It was hard to take picture of that day, crowded with people, even just stop for awhile also will cause 'traffic jam' I think. :P
Haha.
But at least I did take one picture.
Crowded with people.
Well, that's all I have.
:)
Wanted to blog that night, but I was not in a mood.
What a loss.
Next day, Monday.
I am sick!
My mother says maybe I am under the sun for so many hours, I can't take it so I sick.
It was extremely SUFFERING.
Fever and also my whole body pains.
Can't even walk properly.
No appetite to eat also.
Went to the doctor, take medicine, keep on SLEEPING.
And because of this, 3 days I didn't go to school.
OMG, I am bored.
Nothing to do at home.
Surfing the net, play some Facebook games, Pet Society.
ARGHH, hate it when I can't go to school.
I missed class, lots of homeworks, I can't chat with my friends and also can't see him.
:(
Why I must sick?
And also I sick at a time I CAN'T BE SICK.
I really give trouble to a lot of people.
SORRY.
Hope you all will accept my apologize.
Especially to my N.I.E magazine group, Dhurgaa, Hanu, Iman and also Masz.
Our magazine successfully PASS UP to our teacher in charge.
Credits to HANU.
Millions of appreciate.
:D
Well, say 'Goodbye' to our magazine problems and thingy, finally we make it through.
:)
Back to school on Thursday.
Everyone seems to be happy when I was back.
I'm happy too! :D
Because I thought everybuddy forgotten me. :(
Actually that's my negative thought once opon a time is TRUE.
Thanks to all my friends!
You all are also the strength for me to attend school too.
Without you all, I am nothing.
Friends are wonderful.
TeeHee.
^__________^
Well, I got one new project to do.
The 'Sivik' project.
This project stands some of our final exam's marks.
That means this project is very IMPORTANT.
I must do this project SERIOUSLY.
I know I can.
And this project is in groups, not individually.
I joined my dear's group.
I think just 3 people.
My dear, RS and I.
Hope we will done a good job.
Aza-aza fighting!
I think I will stop my blog post here.
Not so long right? :)
Not feel like writing also, not in the mood again. :(
Don't know why, I am so strange.
Haha.
But I still will try my best to come update often.
Wish me luck.
Good luck to all of you too! :D
Okayy, Chaos.
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